world of our own

2007-12-25T07:10:00.000-08:00

this year's CHRISTMAS was smashingly whacky!!!

on the middle of christmas eve and christmas, izwan and i went nuts and became santa claus:D

i bet u fellas will never be able to guess what both of us did!! hahax!! both of us were like two mad freaks in a middle of a night screaming at the top of our voices on a single bike!!!! we were comparing and commenting on each other asses, about whose being cute and perky, whose being big and stocky, LOLx, of course we were very polite too!! shouting merry christmas to every passer-by we see and of course getting into a whole lot of antics!! totally UNIMAGINABLE!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!:P

2007-12-16T00:29:00.000-08:00

The farewell party is coming right up, and i am feeling every bit like a councilor which i have never been, slogging out my guts to do everything to perfection, and to feel the satisfaction which u can derive after achieving perfection once the job is done is never so tasty!!!

frankly speaking, i do not know what is driving me on? Over the charts sugar rush? over secretion of adrenaline? there is just no explanation to all these! it just feels like i have just went thru a thorough revamp-tion process, all of a sudden i feel ready to face up to a whole series of obstacles and challenges, like the tiny energizer battery u see at your advertisement in your tv set, riding onto greater heights!! UP UP and Away!!! LOLx.

deep down, i can see a detonator waiting to explode, a beating heart never wanting to stop and a relentless charge awaiting to be released!!

currently, i am zapping every ounces of holiday-ing mood from my holidays!! it just make me feel replenished and nourished!!
which lead to a sudden conclusion:
BRYANT is ENTHU agian!?!

hmm, maybe a few colours to lighten up my blog:Dthe collage!!!

2007-12-05T08:34:00.000-08:00

weird things have been striking on our peaceful planet, Earth!!!

imagine the below stuff i mentioned

- someone saved from a bullet by a ring!?!
- tigers adopting piglets in a jungle
- pandas mating three times a day, RESULTING in 3 little pandas born
- Donald duck being asked by the Italian court to be a witness
- world biggest elephant missing in NEPAL, when it is supposed to be massive?

(odd, isn't it?)

god, what is happening??? the one thing which shook me the most is one about environmental issues, man i am becoming a environmentalist!!!

u know something?

DIVORCE HURTS THE EARTH!!!

unbelievable isn't it!!! so folks, before u ever consider divorcing with your fellow love ones, think about the Earth that u have been living in!!! i doubt anyone will get anything i am writing, so a thoughtful person with a name of BRYANT TAN, have kindly simplify things to ease your understanding... please do say thank you as a form of mutual respect! thank you you very much!

so back to the topic....

u see, each time a family divorce, it separates into two different households, and that two different households means more use of land, water and energy, which is three very critical resources, and these three critical resources will be exhausted faster if there are more households, therefore, the escalating divorcing rate will means there are more household, as such mother nature is crying in pain!!!

understand ppl?

if u dun, give urself three hard knocks on your head and you will understand!!!
and in case u do not know how to go about doing it, these are the instructions:
- raise our ur hand
- put it beside ur head
-put ur hand as far away as ur head as possible
-fold ur palm in a way, it becomes a fist
-then aim it straight at your head
-at last move ur hand as fast as possible to your head (plz dun stop in the process)

and there you go, your head will be hurting after that, and you will understand things alot easier, faster and better!!!

2007-11-30T02:28:00.000-08:00

man, ushering duty have never been better!!! yesterday's night ushering made me laugh non stop, from a slight kick to a sprite can, to us packing up food, finally to us looking for boxers!!! LOLx. god darn funny, ms lam kinda got pissed by me, i think... never mind, who cares, at least i have fun!!! wonderful night with weiqi and manwei, basically with nothing beta to do!!! hahax.

hairstyle still noob-like...

2007-11-25T17:20:00.000-08:00

well, i think the tv series "heros' is kind off a in thing now... so prove that i am modern and up to date, i did something associated to an in thing.

My Score: Matt Parkman

You scored 62 Idealism, 37 Nonconformity, 29 Nerdiness

I don't want to be a chump.
Congratulations, you're Matt Parkman! You're a great person: caring, hard-working, and honest. You might not have the best of luck, but you do your best in all areas of life. Your kind and responsible nature is rare, and you should be proud of it.

Your best quality: Heart
Your worst quality: You may take more abuse than you deserve

2007-11-15T05:18:00.000-08:00

As for today's blog topic, i shall do a personal recount of the best teachers I have ever met till now in my time in Jurong Secondary School. Maybe I should do another one next year to analyze how much a teacher can change within a year…

For now, I shall reveal:

my list of Top 10 teachers!!!
(DRUMS ROLL~~~LOLx)

No 1: Ms Ng Ching Ing

By far, she is the teacher which have impacted me the most, be it about my studies or about my school life, she never fail to be the torch I needed to light my way out in the dimmest of tunnels. She is also someone who will be your listening ear and help you out of your problems, any problems, so long it is a problem, and she will try her best to help. Her concern for her students is almost unrivalled and her commitment to teaching is almost unquestionable. She has got all the qualities of being the best teacher in the world!!! Calm, cheerful and companionable are the words which can be used to describe her!!! Although she is no longer in our school but we can still remember her vividly in our mind:D

No 2: Mrs Tong

The retro-est teacher I ever seen!! Always up to date with what the students are doing, be it maple or facebook, you name it, she know it! Her lessons are by far one of the more interactive ones; I can’t imagine someone else teaching us the exact same syllabus. Not only that, she knows the topics she teach inside out so much that she can answer any question you throw at her about CHEMISTRY, a walking guidebook to put it simply. She demands the best of answers when it comes to the exam papers she sets!! But that is of course necessary if we want to pass our O’Level in Chemistry with FLYING COLOURS. Hahax! Not to forget, she cares for her student a lot, even after her various meetings, she still manages to fork our enough energy to give us chem-weaklings chemistry supplementary, I doubt any teacher will be able to do that if they are given her schedule!!

No 3: Ms Phua & Ms Ong & Ms Chua & Ms Tang & Mr Lee & Mr Ooi & Ms Wee & Mr Hoe

Cant really make out who are the better one, but all of them have that element within them that make them stand out from the rest of the teachers, I do not know how to put it, but they just come to my head together when I thought of the teachers who I am going to put on my number 3 spot. They are just incomparable, each of them are unique in their own way (Ms Ong, with her constant unique slogan “why not you ask youself”, Mr Ooi, with his ever so easily recognizable hairstyle, Ms Chua, with her undeniably tall height and eg..), all of them do have their differences, but nevertheless, they show care, concern and understanding to their students… IT IS their passion of teaching which really make them shine as true teachers in my heart and all the students’ heart.

more to come....

2007-11-14T19:05:00.000-08:00

Just a few photos to sum things up that happen recently...
The enjoyable pushkart experience!!!my x'mas edition OREO!!!!
And last of all, MY BRAND NEW IPOD NANO!!! YIPEE:D

2007-11-10T03:30:00.000-08:00

haven't you tried asking yourself? what are the consequences of your action? try asking urself how ur attitude change before and after the examination before you comment, will u? honestly speaking, why not i answer on your behalf, IT IS A DRASTIC CHANGE. i can stand you no more.

what i ask is for your support, not your insult and ur persistance nagging. you should really think twice about the role you hold. so RIGHT u always thought you are that you always fail to know your wrongs. ur wrongs are blinded by your stubborness, ur ignorance to acknowledge your misdoings. thats right, maybe thats why.

i am breaking apart. congrating me for the subjects i failed is really not what i wanted to hear. these words have just left my heart in smitereens. everyone can say that, my teacher, my friends, everyone but NOT YOU!!! you never know the feeling of getting hurt, do you? i have feelings and emotions, please respect that. I BEG YOU!! i am already vulnerable enough...

i need you all desperately!!

2007-11-08T05:58:00.000-08:00

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!!

went to vath and sath place today to celebrate deepavali!!! in the midst of getting there, i kind of greet the tamils i see with a joyous 'happy deepavali', and instead of looking at me like a weirdo which i would expect, they thank me and shook my hand!!! hmm, SINGAPOREANS are really polite, arent we? btw, enjoyed our time watching tamil show with a character name called TAMIL (LOL:D) and MISS USA at both their hse!!!! And who could forget the hottest gossip which went on and my witness of a phone call from 'sayang' on izwan's phone!!! OMG!

best of all, we received red packets from their parents too, COOL, i never know that they have such tradition too, i thought only chinese do give out hongbaos!! anw, to sum things up all, i spent a wonderful deepavali this year, or to put it exact, this is da first ever time i celebrated DEEPAVALI. a big thank you to vath and sathia for your brilliant hospitality!!!

the indian version of hongbaos!!!

2007-11-07T06:22:00.000-08:00

Most ridiculous British law:

1. It is illegal to die in the Houses of Parliament

2. It is an act of treason to place a postage stamp bearing the British monarch upside-down

3. In Liverpool, it is illegal for a woman to be topless except as a clerk in a tropical fish store

4. Mince pies cannot be eaten on Christmas Day

5. In Scotland, if someone knocks on your door and requires the use of your toilet, you must let them enter

6. A pregnant woman can legally relieve herself anywhere she wants, including in a policeman's helmet (four percent)

7. The head of any dead whale found on the British coast automatically becomes the property of the king, and the tail of the queen

8. It is illegal to avoid telling the tax man anything you do not want him to know, but legal not to tell him information you do not mind him knowing

9. It is illegal to enter the Houses of Parliament in a suit of armour

10. In the city of York it is legal to murder a Scotsman within the ancient city walls, but only if he is carrying a bow and arrow

what a joke!!!:P

2007-11-06T05:07:00.000-08:00

I AM A SHOW-OFF!!!!

played soccer today and SCORED A HAT TRICK. no mean feat considering that you are playing with the sec 4s who are seasoned players!! maybe they gave chance:D hahax, councilor team won!! UNBELIEVABLE!!!

2007-11-04T01:31:00.000-07:00

finally, chink'ed out!!! feeling so much better now:)

remembering whatever that happened yesterday was a great pleasure!! not forgetting the fact that we were the last school to be called out, and thinking of the survey whereby they asked:

who will you talk to if u were given ten minutes?

what is the topic that you can talk non-stop about?

recall an incident whereby you talk yourself out off?

this questions are like so much tougher than the amaths paper when you were doing it on the spot!! i stoned there for like 20 plus minutes, and i found that people from other school have got the exact same problem, FORTUNATEly... at the end of the day the answers that i given was like as stupid(it is a mean word!! LOL!) as the questions are!!

watched the GAMEPLAN today!!! it was a good show, a typical laughter show!! laughed my heads out!!The Game Plan is probably one of the year 2007's best family movies. It's just a really cute movie that friends and family alike would enjoy.

The story is about a selfish star quarterback who plays for the Boston Rebels NFL team. (Ah, if only it were so). He has a fabulous bachelor pad and a bulldog. He adores Elvis and has adopted his nickname, calling himself Joe "The King" Kingman. He is typical self-lover and one fine day, a wee eight year-old girl shows up on his doorstep and says she is his daughter. This throws him off balance to say the least. all in all, it is a great family movie with the only purpose of entertaining people with that unique touch that only Disney can give. "The Game Plan" is also the rarity in contemporary times—a family movie that is smart, sentimental, sweet, and all heart. Catch it in the theaters now!!!

The Rock plays the part very well. i really got myself attached to the 2 main characters (Peyton and Joe). some parts of the movie was hilarious though, and damn, dwayne johnson can really sing and dance, not to forget, his house is like so freggin' cool!!!

my collection of movie tickets!!! there are 52 altogether!!! WOW!!

2007-11-03T04:26:00.000-07:00

Managed to make it into the arena!!! What an achievement? Hahax, supposed to be filled with happiness and YAY-ness!!! But the feeling within me is so NUMB, not a single bit of happiness at all. I tried to make myself happy but I just couldn’t. And for Eileen, Joan and Clarissa, sorry for being so moody today.

That feeling of joy is getting so hard to muster from within me; I am supposed to be full of it. But now my soul is so disintegrated that I am no longer the me that I know, that side of me have abandoned me and it now seem like it cease to exist. There is so much thing going on within me!!! I hope someone can understand my plight…

Clarissa, Joan, Eileen and i have successfully made into into the top 12 of arena which will be aired on tv!!!

the day where we peeps laughed out heads out outside Pizza Hut!! what a day!!!

I can stand this pressure no more, its making me explode!!! Spare me the nagging plz, I know what I am doing, I am turning into a freak because of you, like a detonator which is slowly ticking away!!! STOP IT!!

2007-11-01T06:46:00.000-07:00

Been really down these few days... i am really lost in a middle of nowhere, FRUSTRATED and CONFUSED!!!

Bugged by a question of whether to continue on my journey or to put down everything and succumb to the pressure surrounding me. For once, i found that no one at home understand one single bit about me, the time when i needed them the most, they turned against me. it is like u are in a deep pit seeking for help, and just when you are about to get out, someone kicked you back into the pit which you try so desperately to get out off. the aftermath of it, is the sense of weakness and a strong desire to stop trying and let yourself continue to sink into a bottomless pit....

what i need is just a little bit of support and a little bit of encouragement when i get home. Is this simple thing of mine too much to ask for? all of sudden, i found friends more endearing than those which i have lived in my life for years. why is it when i am at rock bottom, it is always my friends who keep me happy and lend my a helping hand instead of my family members? the sight of my family members is supposed to make me feel better, but it turns out that the feeling is the complete opposite of what i supposed it would be...

friends, are now someone who for not one moment do I want to miss...

2007-10-27T22:36:00.000-07:00

The so-called holidays are finally here!!! claiming our holidays as a holiday is maybe too strong a statement, a break would be acceptable... Drew out my holidays schedule and i found that i am fully packed and overloaded!!! I bet non-councilor/star people would have plenty of free time to spare, and to do their studies!!! man, i am real jealous!!! why cant teachers just give us a break and provide us with a proper holiday we thoroughly deserve?

in such a realistic society, your service to the school is not appreciated, even if they are, they only last for a moment and they are quickly forgotten... and if you do not provide the goods academically wise, you face the wrath of the teachers who are the very cause of your immensely lousy marks!!! it is just that easy for teachers, make use of students and dump them into the chute once your value is justified , for students, at least for me, i am deafen by what teachers quoted as saying no to your job load!!! like it is so easy to say "NO"... u teachers just dun get it, do you? our main focus as a student is to study and get results, not to do ur junk and clear your shit for you! honestly, when some work are essential, we students would not mind doing it, but when student like us are being used as a workforce for teachers, the purpose is defeated... teachers these days are just nonsensical and ridiculous, of course it does not apply to all teachers, and as usual, there are always a few exception:D (fortunately so, PHEW!!!!)

tag replies:
eileen: maybe bah!!! hahax, but dun nid learn already know already. u only reminded me that we can blog about news too... thanks for the reminder? LOL
yuehua: thanks for your concern, feeling much better already.
bengyew: thanks for tagging!!! enjoy your holidays!!!
jingrui: yips!!! eating noodles is so fun!!! maybe next time camp shld have outdoor cooking!!!
adelina: HELLO!!! :D

2007-10-25T05:58:00.000-07:00

No more news today, many things have happened recently...

lets just start with what happened today!! nice day though, and for no particular reason, Daron and I decided to do outdoor cooking and chef our lunch D.I.Yly. Man, what a delicious meal i have, although it was just a simple bowl of instant noodles, but it kinda taste nicer when you really cook it urself. it started off with just two, and it ended with alot more people who were attracted to our feast of noodles, maybe noodles companies should start paying me for advertising noodles for them. LOL. not to forget, i managed to survive the whole day with a half-inaudible voicebox which is like a day in hell for a chatterbox like me, got to keep tuning my voice to make myself sound normal. worse still, i went for outreach as well!!! and by the time i am back, my voice was really partially gone. but still have alot of fun even when i was voiceless, getting teased at for churning out weird noises all the time, what joy :D!!! LOLx.

friends....hmmm
i believed i found them,
a them which i believe i can really confine in,
a them which make me happy when together
a them which i will never want to lose...

as usual, PHOTOS, hang on erh!!
da delicious noodles
a lunch which turn our to be a gathering
most probably the longest receipt ever:P

2007-10-23T04:43:00.000-07:00

are gay people really that different? what is the thing about them which make people discriminate them? not that i got anything gay or have anything to do with gaying, but i do find it a concern when gay people dont get a fair share of chances to develop their talent like normal ungay people. Big deal!!! so what if someone is gay, it is just that he have more affection towards someone with the same sex, it is as simple as that. PEriod!!!

in case u guys did not know, J.K Rowling, the author of the HARRY POTTER SERIES, revealed on friday night in U.S Carnegie Hall that ALBUS DUMBLEDORE is indeed GAY. I believe this is a big step for Jo Rowling and for gay rights. to get such a popular character, and name it GAY, was really a pretty brave move. who could have believe that someone so respected, so talented and so kind, as someone who just happens to be also homosexual, it actually reinforce the idea that a person's gayness is not something of which they should be ashamed. maybe it is just a flop of a gay to like someone of the same sex which is pretty unusual, if that is the case why do people who have other less obvious flops not treated as unfairly as the gays?

i believe this have got something to do with the acceptance of people.. it is like i go around shouting: " I AM GAY!! YOOHOO I AM GAY!!! " people with low acceptance level wouldn't bother to stop and think if there is other meaning to it, rather they would think that the word gay means gay and shunt you like you are the most unusual thing they have ever seen on EARTh, in fact the meaning is just a easy and simple inference. it shows that i am happy, thats all!!

i would just like to reinstate that I AM NOT GAY, and have nothing to do with the gay association or whatever you can think off which have anything to do with gays!!

2007-10-22T07:34:00.000-07:00

recently i stumbled over a weird piece of news!!! it reads as follow:

Swearing at work 'boosts team spirit, morale'

LONDON (AFP) - Regular swearing at work can help boost team spirit among staff, allowing them to express better their feelings as well as develop social relationships, according to a study by researchers.

Yehuda Baruch, a professor of management at the University of East Anglia, and graduate Stuart Jenkins studied the use of profanity in the workplace and assessed its implications for managers.

They assessed that swearing would become more common as traditional taboos are broken down, but the key appeared to be knowing when such language was appropriate and when to turn to blind eye.

The pair said swearing in front of senior staff or customers should be seriously discouraged or banned, but in other circumstances it helped foster solidarity among employees and express frustration, stress or other feelings.

"Employees use swearing on a continuous basis, but not necessarily in a negative, abusive manner," said Baruch, who works in the university's business school in Norwich.

Banning swear words and reprimanding staff might represent strong leadership, but could remove key links between staff and impact on morale and motivation, he said.

"We hope that this study will serve not only to acknowledge the part that swearing plays in our work and our lives, but also to indicate that leaders sometimes need to 'think differently' and be open to intriguing ideas.

"Managers need to understand how their staff feel about swearing. The challenge is to master the 'art' of knowing when to turn a blind eye to communication that does not meet their own standards."

The study, "Swearing at work and permissive leadership culture: when anti-social becomes social and incivility is acceptable", is published in the latest issue of the Leadership and Organisational Development Journal.

fascinating isn't it, i guess, i will start swearing more next time!! !@#$%$^%!&@^*!&LOL!

tag replies:
charmaine and jingrui: u all make me sound so scary!!! next time i shall minimize my eyes!! hahax
agnes and yuehua: it is still under the trial stage, not comfirmed yet!! i hope it will not be changed. it looks AWFUL!!

2007-10-21T00:07:00.000-07:00

The induction camp is over!! not much a camp for me, due to the arena and those outreach programme, drain my time in camp out... at last i was only spending 7 hours in camp!!! u call that a camp??? hmm, but who cares abt how long i spent, important thing is how much i gained from it!!

i always thought that being a instructor is easy, but maybe after this induction camp, my views towards this have changed!! being a instructor gives me an extra responsibility, something which i was not really sure i could handle at first. in fact, if there were a choice, i would rather choose to be a camper!!! haha, regretted not enjoying life as a camper! i think throughout this induction camp, i kind off witnessed the dramatic changes a camp does to a camper, a growth which is essential for a young seedling to evolve; flaws are exposed, qualities are shown, hope you campers can work on ur weakness and strengthen ur fortes. i hope this induction camp really benefited u campers!! i heard that i was pretty fierce during the camp!! am i? i didn't really notice that... hahax.

the campers!!! hope you campers enjoyed the camp..

man, now i am like a voiceless paralyzed freak running a fever, lying on my bed with loads of medicine by my side, when can i stop falling sick so easily...

2007-10-18T06:10:00.000-07:00

today was TERRIBLE!! i was made to sport the new uniform of the school!!! and worse still, it is a LOWER SECONDARY DESIGN!! that is like so uncomfortable and unsightly, cant get any words to describe it. was busying with the arena, the outreach programme for the whole of today, which explains why i am home only at 8pm... for once mr tan proved himself to be someone capable of being a teacher, at least for sending me home!!! ANd the most important thing is, he taught us what is inertia!!! ( it almost cost my life:() )

had a haircut which is like long overdue, and once again, the barber cut my hard-grown frinch away!!! T_T my effort is gone, and now my hair is like "beautiful" i was cursing my way home after the hair cut, i TOLD HIM: cut it slant and he cut it so flatly like my head look like a ball. i shouted to him twice and he cut it shorter and shorter each time. OH MY GOD!!! so i unhappily went home and cut my frinch myself.... hope no one laugh at me tomoro!!! nt like no one giggle at the sight at the new uniform i wore today. zzzzzzzzz
(did not put the one which is orginally with short pants, it is just awful...) eeewwww!!

AND NOW, it is JOKES TIME!!!

there are 10 fishes in the water, after one fish die, do the water level increase, decrease, or remain?

answer is: INCREASE!! coz the other 9 fishes started crying over the death of that one fish. LOL

let me tell u another lame lucky plaza joke... which is the place with the most philiphinoes.

answer is : PHILIPHINES ( i think u will not understand, but neh mind.)

jokes proudly sponsored by jasmine and dorisa. applause( clap clap?)

tag replies
eileen: thank you so much!!! really own u one!!! thanks for appearing in the arena!!! and lastly thanks for your support... i appreciate it alot:D

2007-10-17T06:28:00.000-07:00

GRRRR!!! i have no idea why?? i tried my best, i did!! REALLY!! it is not like i did not put in any tiny weeny effort. the fact is that i put in loads of effort, a whole truckloads of them, but i gotten nothing in return!! it is really puzzling, and it sets me thinking, why is it that in subjects which i do not put in any effort, i scored rather well, but instead those which i prepared and studied alot, i gained nothing! no improvements at all to put it exact. is that what they refer as fate playing tricks on you. for now, it appears quite true, at least to me!! fortunately there are always friends who stood by my side to soothe the blow of my devastatingly lousy marks. thanks buddies!! love u peeps lots!!!

jocelyn: gd to hear that nothing happen. np, i will tag often.
vivian: cant seem to find ur tagboard after you change ur blogskin... need help? hahax, how u doing? i reckon i have my share of problems... life is always so freakin tiring. hope you have been well too!!

2007-10-16T05:51:00.000-07:00

throughout the whole of end-of-the-year exams, i have always have a weird feeling, a sense of deja vu, like everything of my life is recurring. it is really making me feel paranoid for everything which is going to happen tomoro. the moment of truth huh.. maybe, but some truth tend to be revealed before it is meant to be, and it ain't making me feel any better, for truth open up many doors of doom, and tons of them. hmm, tomoro is really going to be a tough day ahead!!! i dun feel like knowing anything, i just hope that things can still be like how it used to be... i have no idea why people say stuff like destiny is in their hand and stuff, it is just freakingly untrue... i tried my best but why do i not reap what i sow. i am bewildered.. seriously!!! a brilliant wake-up call this morning have not done this thinking of mine any good, in fact it just prove it to be true and indeed it is very true. u know it made me feel like a failure. A BIG FAT ONE!!! i really have to brace myself for a tough and tedious day ahead!! i am really sick and tired of those people who just do not know what they are talking about. it really hurts me a lot when accusations are being pointed out without any lead or causes!!! IT IS PURE SICKENING!!!!

hazel: hello!! dun feel too sad erh, we are both in the same boat. hahax!!
manwei: yeah!!! look forward to playing more in the future, especially during the holidays!
eileen: hahax, i think it is more than one subject we are talking about here. anw, thanks for ur concern!!!

2007-10-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

today was like such a typical enjoyment day!!! a full day of relaxation and fun, marred by only a god damn taxi driver who scold the government of singapore, boast about how smart his children are and how rich he is.... that is like WTF!?! fancy him pull me back to hear his own grandfather story, after much struggle, i managed to get off the cab, that is like FINALLY.... went to chia heng's house for a bbq again, of course another fun time spent, getting thrash by everyone on every game. LOLx. this is officially the third time we buddies have a barbeque, and as usual we are treated to good food and good weather!!! almost rained but didn't rain, what a fortunate day. Lady luck is by our side, and it followed me all the way to the badminton court of nanyang cc!!! i was almost exactly right on time, although i left chia heng's house late, lucky me indeed. have another wonderful time with daron eileen and manwei. i am kind off the noobiest down there, but managed to punch a few good shots which is what we called a drop-shot and if u want to put it negatively it is what you call pah-jiao!! not sure i spelled it correctly, but ppl who went there would know what i am talking about. damn... now my hands are like trembling, cant really type properly... LOLx, but here i am still typing... hahax, lame-_-""" as usual, pictures will be followed up...
a random pic of strawberry second one in the week?

a picture taken at the last bbq which i didnt update on.. OUTDATED!!! LOLx

a picture from the bbq today. more to follow!!!

2007-10-12T07:01:00.000-07:00

it have been quite some time since i last updated.and that njrc medal must have been rotting as my headline for like god knows how long!! a series of happenings but not going to say all, to name a few i attended a few barbeques, enjoyed myself and mug myself out. amazing life, isn't it? hahax. maybe a few pictures will do it!! maybe just a few jokes and i will cap off this post with some photos.

question: why did i guy came back of a war wearing of bra,
answer:because they came back with truimph?

question:what do sushi a say to sushi b?
answer:wasabi? (wad's up b)

3-5 nike troop? LOL

hmm... me cooking!!! what a sight!?! hahax

2007-09-10T06:24:00.000-07:00

The September holiday comes and flies. Just a few blinks, and it it gone!!! Consumed by the njrc, to put i simply. but fortunately, it managed to yield some results after the hard work we have put in. A medal as a fruit for our labour, how rewarding... managed to squeeze some time out for some physical labour as well. on friday, i went out to play badminton with eileen and manwei!!! i went down like so instantly, straight after the call i received to go down. have quite a good time, commentating about eileen's performance. i went into the night , reflecting about our shrewed up performance during the njrc, only to recieve the call from mr loh that we have won an award. it is like. LOL. his timing was like so perfect... and soon, after attending the saturday prize giving ceremoney. It was over. MY HOLIDAYs are gone!!!

Today's lesson was pretty much alright, except that i found myself a little rusty after the long break. Went to mug with a friend after school!!! so BENEFICIAL!! LOL

the fruit of our labour

2007-09-06T18:58:00.000-07:00

NJRC is finally over. Kinda mixed with feelings, happy that it is over but sad that we visually came out of it with nothing. no doubt, we could have done better with our experience, but this time round, our last minute flaws were thoroughly exposed. I SHALL NOT DO LAST MINUTE WORK EVER AGAIN. though our grp did not live up to our name, but we sure enjoyed the process of our last year engaging in NJRC. the quarantine period was something i thought we could have made do without. it basically left us stoning there for 9 god-damn hours. fortunately, i met a friend there, and chatted with her for like 2 hours or more, while the rest kill their time in an sardine can-like booth... Wish the two team who made it to the finals all the best. and to mr loh, sorry for disappointing you, we underperformed...

our booth
our grp members
our over-sized jersey
our mascot

tag replies:
chingyee: good luck for ur eoy too!!
liling: thanks for ur compliments abt my blogskin, hmm, my sis and i looked alike, i did not really notice that.
chanteng: yo!! update ur blog plz
weiqi: dun worry, i wun choke on my bread!!! thanks for ur advice!! u dun choke on urs too.
clarissa: gd luck for your eoy too. once again, gd luck in your quest
angie: hello, finally tagged liao, i will never forget you as a friend. dun worry.

2007-09-04T07:16:00.000-07:00

Egoism and self-centeredness work in the subtlest fashion, at least from my point of view... Employing an endlessly adaptable variety of approaches to maintain our illusion of seperatness. One important source for this lies in our perceived failures and successes. When we fail, or feel that we have failed, egoism leads us to consider ourselves to be failures, incompetent, stupid, perhaps even worthless. When we succeed, egoism leads us to inwardly preen, swell with pride, feel invincible, and consider ourselves to be better than others. And then we tell ourselves and others stories of failure or of success. In either scenario we buy into allowing our self-worth and our own reality to be defined by events external to us, by the feedback we receive from the world.

Sorrow for and learning from our mistakes, as well as natural satisfaction in our accomplishments, does not necessary strengthen our self-centeredness. But the great temptation of the poles of success and failure consists of ascribing them to our illusory self, feeling that it is myself who have succeeded or failed, praising or blaming myself, and thereby perpetuating my misguided belief in this mirage of a self.

Neither great success nor continuing failures can fundamentally alter who I am. This is a hard lesson taught by experience. And since most of us never achieve what we define as great success, it remains an unattained goal, forever enticing us to look exclusively to externals for meaning and purpose.

i am engulfed by failure, failure to accomplish mission. i am LOST, intoxicated between the nature of exasperation and madness, misguided by my egoism or my illusory self?

2007-09-02T06:40:00.000-07:00

it is always good to reward yourself after a hard day work, and today was a day when my mom decided to reward the whole family. i was like so stunned when my dad announced that we are dining out for dinner, my attitude was simply , u must be kidding. But it turned out otherwise, and after a routine rotting session for the whole day, my whole family walked out of the house together, it was this sense of bond within the family which i so solely missed, the feeling of being part of a family. i hope day like this today would happen more in the future.

some picture to go with the night i spent at the Indonesian restaurant. if i am not wrong, it is called Samir or something close to that. so to pit it exact, it is the second time in the week which i dine at Takashimaya. Lucky me. btw, when i was eating those delicious food (tender satay, black pepper chicken, and some tofu junk! YUMMY!! ) at the restaurant, i heard a familiar music, one which we used to dance together. it created a stir in my heart, just want you to know...

my sis and i....
my dad was like trying to advertise for the restaurant.
both my mum and dad. i love them lots...
the mouth-watering food!!!

tag replies:
chin: really, i was half-thinking it was a failure. thanks for the encouragement
jiaxin: indeed, the dinner was like so filling. and once again, sorry for ps-ing you girls.
chia heng: our pleasure to have dinner with you, hope you like the present
agnes: thanks for tagging back, btw, u were a good emcee on that day. way to go.
jocelyn: finally know ur url, hahax, nice blog, was half-expecting it to be fully purple, LOL
jingrui: ok then, thanks for tagging
hazel: HAIL de fuhrer, and wish ourselves all the best for the NJRC. hahax

2007-09-01T06:50:00.000-07:00

TO all teachers, WISH U ALL A
HAPPY TEACHERS' day!!!

i shall discuss about teachers as a general:

Teachers have the greatest impact on student learning and achievement, greater than the make-up of the students in the classroom. The significance of teachers tend to be underestimated by many. As a matter of fact, every great man is being gloomed by a teacher. Teachers are thus fundamental to not just our students’ success, but to our society’s success.

Do you know, the amount of power a teacher hold is now greatly controlled and monitored. No longer can teachers wield cane like the olden times, and teachers are also not allowed to scold students!!! What have the world become? In taiwan, the teachers even have to ask the permission of the students before they could scold the students. this is due to fear of getting sued by the parents of the teachers. Is this caused by the modernization of the society, whereby certificates are all that matter, so much that disciple is no longer a decided factor; or is it that the parents do not want their child to suffer like how they did when they were young, getting beaten and scolded by teachers. Is this why students these days are being pampered so much, like how the olden kings used to treat their treasures as their closest kin. Have the parents have no common sense to think that the man that they are now, are groomed by the teachers who discipled them in their process of growing up. it really sets my mind moving, what are students going become in the years to come? imagine a typical classroom fight, and a teacher can no longer do anything about it due to their limited power and almost invisible presence to the students. when i think of this, the only word which come associated with that classroom is the word CHAOS.

i really hope that government should really start pondering about their decision to grant the students that much student rights, and really call for parents to stop pampering their children like three year old kid. this way classrooms will have order brought back to them and teachers can have much better sleep...

p.s.
to u: sorry for ps-ing you people, was busy.

2007-08-31T08:38:00.001-07:00

Today is the teachers’ day celebration organized by Sathia and I. though it was a bit messy at some area but we can still draw a conclusion that the celebration is still pretty much a success. Over here, I would like to thank all of you batch mates who have made all these possible, this event would not have gone anywhere without your help…

Well, I had a shock in the morning!!! Not about changes in the teachers’ day, but rather a information which tells me that I got to report to the science centre at 2pm coz our group de fuhrer have successfully made it to the short list of the most bizarre and best video award category, when the teachers’ day celebration I planned was supposed to end at 1pm. Straight after I done my debrief, I dashed home, changed into my full uniform, grabbed my laptop and went to the science centre; fortunately I was straight on the dot, still punctual anyway. Waited for quite some time before it was our turn for the interview. We were lucky to be able to witness some electric whizzing thingy, not exactly sure what it is, but it was downright cool and amazing. Before we went off, we cant help but stood at the entrance of the science centre, looking at a device which shows all the law of physics and it was there for like so long, that I remembered seeing it there when I was in kindergarten. After the science centre interview ended, I went to have dinner at takashimaya with ch, jx and wq.i went there reluctantly with my uniform, coz i was like lazy to get back home to change. imagine a guy wearing uniform walking at orchard, what a out of place sight! anw, Enjoyed myself with the food, and it was a good time for a buffet considering the fact that I was being starved off the entire day. THANKS CHIA HENG for this delightful treat. AND ALSO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO. Hope you like the present that we gave you. So now I am at home, exhausted and weary after a day of fun-filled activities.

SATHIA and I, the main i/c
the one who ensured the performances run well
the main organizing committee!!
the machine from kindergarten
the birthday boy and i!! HAPPY BIRtHDAY!
the place at Taka where we have our extravaganza buffet

2007-08-30T06:20:00.000-07:00

Non-ceasing blockbuster day for me!!! Busy here and there, running up and down.. Mother tongue prelim for me today, and from them on i am into some non-stop actions. first the robotics interview in the afternoon, then the finalization of details for the teachers' day tomorrow, and damn, the hall looks like one suitable for teachers' day, that is like FINALLY! i got to admit, it was magnificient. Vathsalal was treating me to a whole feast of laughter today, she was walking in front of me until she slided down the whole flight of stairs like it is a slide in a playground. GOD!!! that was so funny! i know that was bad for me to laugh at a friend, but my goodness, that is really hilarious, from the way she fall, till the time she got up, it was just a darn good laugh. the weirdest thing is, when she recovered, she did not say ouch, rather she asked if her skirt was wet. that was like so wth!?! man, doesn't that hurt you a single bit? next up is how my teachers' day prep clashes and contradicts with the interview i have to attend today. trust me, after today, i really do have a phobia in doing last minute work, it is like causing me to run around like a lunatic, looking for this, looking for that. fortunately we manage to cramp everything we need to do by today, so overall, it really did went on well. but atlas, my poor laptop was seriously overworked, running process one after another, the tribute, the timetable, the njrc powerpoint, and the problematic video! i really do own you one there! thanks for not lagging and not hanging today, running every job i give you with the minimum of fuss and a maximum of efficiency. after the interview, i rushed back to school with the help of my beloved mr tan!!! i starting to like him more more though. seriously, i felt quite guilty seeing you so disappointed today, sorry for being so ridiculous and inattentive in your class... i will change, believe me! when i got back to school, i thought everything was in a mess, until i kinda got reassured by ms ong. i also got a surprise treat!! I GOT MY CLASS TEE. it was like so nice lar, i am so proud to put in on, Kudos to katherine!! Hail the master artist. LOL. let's pray hard tomoro teachers' day would be a success!!!

the gorgeous CLASS TEES!!!

THE PROGRAMMERS!!! ct and i!!!
our team!!! DE FURHER

2007-08-29T06:58:00.000-07:00

Teachers' day is just round the corner!!! Planning have been more than satisfactory and everything seems to be going on fine. how i wish Friday's event would be a success, tomrow going to be the preliminary exam for mother tongue. not prepared and not making any effort to be prepared, i shall say, coz i am just to busy. LOL. just gave him a call and cleared the air between both of us, now i believe things are definitely a lot better than before. today, our class is treated with a feast of teachers' delight. Not only is today mr riduan's last lesson, it is also mr lau first lesson with us. if ever russell peters should feel threatened over his job, the threat must have come from mr lau. Hahax, i think he is the only physics teacher deemed capable in teaching physics in our physics-teacher depleted school. he kind of defied whatever mr tan have taught us, and we understand everything mr tan have problem teaching us in just one lesson. that is like so impossible. Hail the godly master, the true master of physics!!! :D how i wish he could be our physics teacher, this way i will ace physics like a piece of cake. some photos to commemorate mr riduan's few week with us!!!
footage of mr wan's lesson. LOL!
tak 1!! Failed!! thanks to mr wan apparent distraction
tak 2 failed!!! thanks to the unbright light.
finally a successful one!!! LOL

2007-08-26T07:24:00.000-07:00

TODAY"s FLAG DAY... went to do my part for the animals in the zoo, kinda ask for money like i was a beggar, so starved of money!!! hahax, i think i ended up with the heaviest gonk(can), if that's what u call it.and one interesting fact, people who donated are mostly banglas, not that i have anything against them, but i have problem conveying my message to them , i was like demo-ing to them how to put the coin in then they know that i am asking for donation. -_-"", all those time, they were speaking in their native language, cant understand their nonsense. hahax. people who are asking donation next time, take my advice, stand outside the bank, it is the best source of 'income'. i just love that place, it is so blessed with kind and good souls who donated all the coins they have.(they should have too much notes to spare, that they are so eager to clear the burden of coins they have). maybe i owned u ppl who donated into my can another thank you for putting coins into my can on top of others... i was working my heads off with chia heng until he went off due to him feeling unwell( beta rest more arh... sorry for leaving u there along to go home) , until my legs and shoulders failed me. fortunately, i met zhen yuan and we kinda stood there together until we felt tired and we sat there by the taxi stand for a slacking session. later, we went to meet up with some friends( who thoroughly believe that i psed them rather than it being the other way round) to sit in the library till 6, to gain our deserved cip hours. talk quite alot about certain matters. why do i have a feeling that dark clouds are hovering above us, and the something stormy seem destined to happen soon.... for now, who cares? I just LOVE MY can number 0997!!!

nice stickers this year!!!

2007-08-25T03:12:00.000-07:00

finally change my blogskin after complains from peers abt the text not being able to be deciphered. hmm, all of a sudden my mind bring me back to the night of initiation. so many memories abt it, some being horrid, while others being hilarious. well, is sometimes i wonder if physical punishment is good for students. is it really what you call a fast and efficient way to drill logic into our head?

well, i may BEG TO DIFFER cause it is said that physical punishment will lead to aggressive behavior, and it it not good for our young growing body. according to research 70% of people developed violent attitude, so maybe us people who went for camp with physical punishment are within the lucky 30% who did not develop negative side effects, that is if we are all good gentle and friendly souls... i mean, as if people are not already having the side effects, you know what i mean... hahax. but coming to think of it, i think having some physical punishment is still good. i kinda missed those torturous yet joyous time i spent doing countless pumpings and performing reporting with my fellow batchmates!! those good old times... dun think i will be experiencing those stuff which pump the crap out, and give me creeps, anytime soon(fortunately?). i would be insane if i say i enjoyed doing physical punishment, but sometimes, though i really hate to say it, it really does help.

but as times changes and day passes, i think people will start to resent such ways of 'teaching', and it will eventually be abolished. though i hope this does not happen, but somehow i feel that it is inevitable. just looking at technology, boy! they really do change fast. diskette are no longer in fashion and laptops are no longer bulky, someday it will change, but i hope it is not anytime soon...

2007-08-24T06:47:00.000-07:00

During the good old days when i attended primary school, i used to frolic under an enormous raintree. i played childish games of catching and hide-and-seek with my friends there and that easily satisfied our young innocent minds when we needed something to use up the endless surplus of energy in little kids like us.

the raintree was also a cool spot to be in for me then. it's umbrella-shaped crown of leaflets protected everyone from the cruel sizzling heat of the sun. it was easy to see why it became my favourite spot.

it is located next to the basketball court which has been well-used over the years. they frayed remains of the net prove this. it is also beside the badly twisted fence painted in green and white. around it are five pong pong trees laden with venomous green fruits which ripen into round balls of white with clinging pink skin.

under the raintree, there is also a bench which has deteriorated into a near collapsing structure of a few decaying boards. Beneath that is a pile of decomposing leaves which is where the teacher usually brought students to see the inhabitants of the leaf mound for science lessons. i can still remember feeling the blood draining from my face when the teacher used a long pole to expose family of centipedes and millipedes for us to see.

there is also a kite stuck in the complex network branches and boughs of the raintree. Somebody tried to climb up and get it but his hands were blistered by the rough brownbark of the raintree, so it is still there today, i think, probably, tattered and shredded.

If i ever make my way back, i reckon i will feel nostalgic. the raintree was my friend. i remember those gnarled roots which burrow into the earth and cio back up again, those carpets of gree grass and white mushrooms. even if those reamin, however, something has gone-the merriment and laughter of times we shared has gone.

p.s. chia heng hope you recover soon man!! dun overwork urself.

2007-08-22T03:21:00.000-07:00

A significant day today for me. Got to remember this day, as like what i say, it have a significance to me, but i will only know it next year. Well, the teacher's day is coming soon, and to me, it is kinda mine first time planning a major event. So far, the planning process have been rather messy, but i think things will change for the better in the next couple of days. well, heard a joke from my fellow director today... What do call ms tham when she drive? hehex. the answer is.... A THUMBDRIVE!!! whacky isn't it. well, to my beloved form teacher, i suggest a change in physics teacher. u really ought to think what is your purpose of being a teacher? to make girls cry, or worse still make ppl hate the subject you are teaching? a little bit of care, a little bit of concern, and a little pit of compassion will really take you miles ahead. Well, today, saw one erm... to be it positively, mad, but to put it negatively, a trying-to-be-cute boy at macdonalds. he was like so entertaining? i think i am abit mentally unsound today too, walking from lakeside to boon lay mrt station... i must have gone nuts... but as i walk, it kind off reminds me of a whole lot of thing and bring back a whole ton of memories...

2007-08-20T06:27:00.000-07:00

kicked soccer during P.E in class today, have so much fun. scored four and one assist. Not bad erh? to think i scored from my goal line. that is like so freakin far, and it miraculously bend in. Damn my leg, both are having blisters after some rough tackling by Kyk and Daron. i kinda flipped two rounds on the floor before recovering from the tackle, darn man!!! now i have bruises all over my back. Hurts a filthy lot.But the pain was kinda replaced with a great 5-1 victory. good game man, one of the better match i played so far this month. Set back is i can barely walk now. LOL. after school, went to look for mr ooi to save my maths which is spiraling downhill, and went to explorers after that. sorry for psing u all for the councilor interview...

U shld have trusted what i do
it is not that i want to comment
but of all ppl, i think u have the least of rights
i know you are weared out, everybody is
but i do know my priorities, trust me!!
i revealed a truth to someone
and i believe that that someone
will lock it up like a safety safe...
a good friend of mine is lost,
the hope of reconciling is faint
but i still hold that last ticket
for all my faith lies in that.

2007-08-19T07:39:00.001-07:00

YES!!!!!!!!! MACHESTER CITY WON MANCHESTER UNITED1-0:D!!!

can u believe it, manchester city won the derby against United, and sure they are freakin fuggin good under former england manager sven goran eriksson. Smashed those critics will u all, he is one of the top manager in the soccer industry, and his record speaks for himself. Look at that, a new look City beating United. Fancy that? can u do it? if u do have eyes, take a look, his transfer is sure cool, and his eye for talent is definitely intact. ALL HIS SIGNINGS ARE pretty DARN GOOD!!!! Elano, bianchi, and geovani(he scored the winner) of course!! compared to the signings of ferguson? Just taking a peep at tevez really make me puke. and plz the players united are paying for are seriously overpriced. poor united players , i bet they are LOVING THE HAIRDRYER. HaHax!! poor ferguson, he must have thought that tevez stopage time went into the net, as he jumped like a lunatic, thinking that united have salvaged a point. even tevez cant belive it man!! Look at sven's expression when ferguson was jumping with "joy"!!! LOL, sven's eye of coolness and sympathy. i feel sad for alex too, but alas, too bad for him!

2007-08-18T23:34:00.000-07:00

well, time really do pass real fast. within a week, the secondary one interview part 1 and 2 is over, and the carnival is also over. a hectic schedule indeed for this week, but i particularly enjoyed the carnival yesterday, making test tubes, arranging MACCORONI, and stuffing them into tubes of gels. necks aching, back snapping, but still our hard work paid off, i think, we managed to raise quite a sum of money for charity. Those screaming we did, " PARTY POPPERs 1 dollar, 1 dollar, 1 dollar..." were especially fun. james was keeping up his hilarious feat, constantly doing his best to get people to buy our products( good promoter he is!!) . and oops, sorry for yelling at you when u knocked at me accidentaly. to izwan, adrain, james and everyone else who did the shouting also, kudos to u all man. LOL! for people who stuffed the maccoronis as well, cool job isn't it? eileen was especially funny man, threatening to cease production. after sathia kinda did not give her a damn, she really stopped. nice one, gal!! On all the PMT's behalf, i just say a BIG THANK YOU to everyone who helped and 'GOOD JOB' to all of u, without u all, this would not have been much of a success. this give us PMTs a jolt of confidence before a mass carnival we are organizing for our school next year. AYE, almost forgot about the secondary one councilor interview. LOL. i really do have great fun, bombarding junior with questions. their expressions were like -_-"" WTF!?! Duh, dosen't it sound insane, sadistic me!! my bad! fortunately, most of the people who i wanted them to be in did make it, except for one. Haiz! disappointing. this more or less summed up my tiring but yet joyous week.

2007-08-13T05:32:00.000-07:00

Quite happy with the progress i have been making so far. Though it is still far from good, but it have been enough to satisfy me. Well, i think now it should be time i start watching my own language and those wretched words coming out from my mouth. free as u may say that we Singaporeans enjoy a freedom of speech, but i decided to put it upon myself to correct myself. I shall give myself one week. Hahax, let's see how it go... I shall unleash the latest gadgets i bought. THE SONY PSP!!!! I am not showing off, merely flaunting. LOLx

2007-08-11T08:04:00.000-07:00

Emotions creeping up my heart like symbioses crawling up a helpless soul! thinking of the times we have, the joy we share, just make me treasure the moments we spent together. This mix of bitter and sweet memories enriches my life like fertilizers applied to a helpless plant. sometimes, puzzling life may be, but the courage to come back and settle down is still the most crucial. Every time, i dazed up the stars, admire the greenery and scan the rivers, joyous moments just flood through my head like torrents of rain flowing fast and free, it is just like sponging your own mind of precious moments and, stringing it into a long movies, comparable to adding pearls to a necklace. it just make me feel startled and emotional. today's barbecue i had with some good friends of mine is one of few rare occasions, when peeps come together... having a simple game of sports, and a tedious moment of setting up a fire, really do do our friendship a lot of good! Recalling the moments i spent a few hours back, I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF!!! well, i think i went a little nuts, so thanks for taking my various slight spams of madness and mindlessness. a few photos to remember the great time spent:

2007-07-30T04:37:00.000-07:00

Relishing in a position which i was never familiar with is unnerving... it is not like staying there is my clinche, but i am assuming my space where i was never in. my usual spot seem so distant, definitely unreachable considering my feeble attempt to get myself out. my consistently bad performance really hit me hard. besides, it's my life after all, i must start taking responsibilities for my own action, and stop blaming others!!! better start pulling up my socks and buck up before i destroy whatever i have stood for, and fought so hard to achieve. it is now or never!!!!

2007-07-24T06:07:00.000-07:00

Fancy translating English to Chinese. check it out guys? KFC- its finger lickin' good.
into chinese!?! Probably one of the dumbest competition of all time perhaps. nah, that's not the main issue anyway. who cares about that?
after school went for cheering, have a little chat with various ppl here and there. understood something more to complete that sophisticated and confused puzzle in my head.. anyways, jurong clinched the champion of the west zone. nothing much, they should have won, well-deserved. today, my sis was flipping thru my sch mag, and found quite some guys ridiculously handsome when they are dashingly ugly. girls taste, never can be understooded by guys!!

2007-07-22T02:35:00.000-07:00

i really dunno where to start saying and relating the stuff which is happening to me. complicated? maybe... so long i know all these stuff are making me vexed up!!! u know, sometimes things are not really based on hands-on or hands-off, it may seem easy but it is definitely easier said than done. what's make stuff worse, is when everything is against all odds. i merely wanted to help, that's all. so simple and easy. it is nothing about jealousy or attitude, nor anything else u could think of. neither will i put unreceptive and unwelcoming as words and vocab for me to base my anger on. sometimes not all people can confine everything to a certain pal, not everyone will be able to tell u things straight in your face. regardless, is it that u are stuck-up, downright insane or any words u can think off, it is just not as simple as u thought. even with a certain hot-seat, u can never say it is ridiculously simple to bring your points across, worse still citing something like talking about your flaws. sometimes, it would be beta if u follow your instincts, go according to what your heart tells u. if the problem of trust arises, go as it leads you, no one will blame you for that. if the presence of a certain someone is making you feel troubled, uneasy, or to put it worse and ugly-sounding, extraMAtic, just tell him. he will understand. also, always remember!!! SMILE!!!

2007-07-12T17:16:00.000-07:00

pretty worked up, tired, exhausted from a marathon of work. well, on the verge of getting sick, but still nt yet sick... dotz? the beijing shida ppl came to jurong secondary yesterday. only got told to present like some 15 minutes before they come? nevertheless, another job badly done, i should really start to rekindle and rethink about my future...

2007-07-09T05:47:00.000-07:00

YAY!!! we are officially the 25th. a day which we have all waited for as a batch. OFFiCE BEARERS, all the way. some a wonder leader commencement day, went up to stage for recognition, and of course i received my recognition. dotz. never mind about the recognition. wow!?! so many recognition used, no more recognition... RECOGNITIOn is about... OOPS, NO MORE RECOGNITION. lame!! i shall save the rest for the photos...

Our batch photo, half a batch. half a 25th!! The project management team!! COOL!?!
pretty souveniors by our coords!! thanks!!!

ELDDS CHAIRMAN AND PRESIDENT!! YAY!
WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE?

2007-07-01T08:03:00.000-07:00

Went to watch transformers today with james again. SO nice man, didn't believe james at first, but this movie sure did not dissapoint, to put it exact, we should pay more than 9.50 to watch it. the effect, the c-g screening, it is just breath-taking. i cant find more words to praise it, just see it urself!!! believe me, it is worth every penny!!! WHAT ARE U WAITING FOR? GO WATCH IT NOW!!

2007-06-29T05:47:00.000-07:00

why?
why do all these things happen in a whole long chain? streching me to a limit whereby i could no longer withstand? why do u have to do this way that i am hurt the same place as i was the previous time? it was just not long ago did i managed to recover from a heavy blow, and now i got to deal with another. i am tired, mentally tired, too weak to cope yet another major blow, ENOUGH!! give me a break..

2007-06-25T05:36:00.000-07:00

after all your encouragements and a talk with ms tang, really see through quite a number of stuff!! PMT not really a bad post after all, i shall make use of this post and strive with it!!! hahax. went for picnic with james and daron todae, so cool and fun!!! our whacky ideas will finally be put into action!! hahax we shall make sure the 25th is legendary!!! WE WILL DO IT!!!

P.S. thanks my fellow batchmates, sec 2s and my friends, thanks for your concern and encouragement. they really got me going!!! THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN, YOU ALL ARE JUST GREAT!!!

2007-06-24T07:59:00.000-07:00

last day of the june holidays. supposed to finish all my holiday assignments but just cant bring myself to finish it. not feeling any betta compared to yesterday. images still flashing in my head. cant forget a single thing. last night was no better, the moment i laid on the bed, i started to think about it again. it is just hard to forget...

2007-06-23T05:35:00.000-07:00

AGM meeting today. did not get that post which i so desperately wanted. i am just a failure. i know i could have done better, but i did not. am i even fit to be a student councilor? my arrogance, my ego, that bloody swagger of mine, have plagued me all my life. why cant i get rid of them, why cant i? maybe i am just not destinied to be a leader. when my name appears under the project management team, i was like stunned, shocked, then devastated, followed by a strong gust of sadness. tears were welling up in my eyes. i tried to control, tried not to cry. but the moment i look at the sec2s, i just couldn't help it. i know i failed them. i just couldn't help it, tears just started dropping like torrents of rain flowing fast and free. i failed to stop my tears once again. i am just a total failure, a piece of garbage, a guy who is hollow and making no sense all the time. for the sec2s, you all really make me feel part of u all, u all must strive and seek better guidance from kenneth and eileen, they are superb, believe me. no harm trying it out. as for my fellow batchmates, thanks for lending me your shuolders and giving me words of encouragement, especially james, daron, sellek, izwan and solihin. you all are just FAb. i dunno how much worse would i have felt without u guys. my enthusiasm must stay, i know it must, but.... ernest and darren from the 22nd student council, you all really give us a hand in handling our current situation. for james who was also with me, i know you are sad, both of us are, you are dissapointed, so am i. cry it out, maybe it will make you feel better... as to my future post in the 25th student council, give me some time, i will try to make u shine. but before this, let me settle down and cry it all out.... BRYANT, forget this!!! accept the fact you can never be a sec 2 coordinator, go on a new path, and forget abt your past, U MUST DO IT!!!

2007-06-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

sadistic day today. how careless of me? went to make my i/c and forgot to bring my birth certificate. LOL. went back and went back? yup, went back and went back. (just what am i talking abt) this sentence is meant to be weird, so if u get it... U ARE WEIRD!!! back to da whole point, i spent 3 damn hours just to register my i/c. lame isn't it?

2007-06-19T02:19:00.000-07:00

well, went back to school today to finish up some unfinished business. sadly today, is gonna be gonna ms ng's last lesson with us. sob sob:( really hope she need not leave. but still i wish her all the best in her career. precious memories of ur time spent with us, will be etched in our minds forever. i shall dedicate this piece of work to u, the teacher which we treasure so much...

Farewell to thee!
but not farewell
To all my fondest thoughts of thee:
Within my heart they still shall dwell;
And they shall cheer and comfort me.
If I may ne'er behold again
That form and face so dear to me,
Nor hear thy voice,
still would I faint
Preserve, for aye, their memory.
That voice, the magic of whose tone
Can wake an echo in my brain
,Creating feelings that, alone,
Can make my tranced spirit blest.
That laughing eye, whose sunny beam
My memory would not cherish less; --
And oh, that smile!
whose joyous gleam
Nor mortal language can express.Adios,
And bid the future pay the past
With joy for anguish, smiles for tears?

Here are some photos we took with her...

2007-06-18T05:22:00.000-07:00

Last week of holiday, supposed to be the time to relax. instead i find myself in a ridiculous mess, looking from left to right, not being able to find an empty space in my freakin' schedule. PLZ i wish there were more time!!!

2007-06-14T23:03:00.000-07:00

still reeling from muscle aches all over my body. lazing around now, feeling tired and weak. wondering where are the rest of my batchmates... they said they gonna be online, but i saw none. LOL, maybe all of them are feeling very very tired. no excuses coz i feel tired myself too. if not for my usual habit of not sleeping, i thought i would have fall flat on my bed yesterday. cant wait for them to reveal our post during AGM. i seriously feel i will get my desired post which is... SECONDARY 2 COORDINATOR. for now, i wish myself all the best. wishing well for myself!?! LOL

2007-06-14T05:42:00.000-07:00

SLC simply roxs! Spent 3 days meaningfuly in the camp, learn various key elements in becoming a gd councilor and of course a good person. i seriously felt my batch have a better understanding towards each other!!! 25th student council GO GO GO!!! i am dedicating this poem to my fellow batchmate, SOLIHIN!!! once again, sorry...
I know I hurt you and I feel so bad,
For saying things and making you sad..
It's just that my love for you is so great,
I want to be with you, I just can't wait..
You are so special, one of a kind,
I could look forever and never find,
Anyone else as wonderful as you,
With such a pretty smile and eyes so blue..
Please forgive me for things I said,
I love you so much,
It just messed my head..
You are my life.
My very breathe,
I promise to love you, even after death..
So if you can forgive this broken hearted friend,
You'll never see that part of me again..

2007-06-11T06:14:00.000-07:00

camp prepAration pretty much done, i think the camp is going to be a successful one, i hope everything go on fine and of course wish my group all the best and if possible win the best grp. well, the end of the camp also dawn the start of our reign in the office of sc. cool. nvm, we shall these stuff flow as nature intended. but instead of gaining energy at home today, daron and i went kBOx? cool isn't it, before a camp, singing!!! haha. enjoyed myself thoroughly but albeit a cost... LOL!! time to do packing... ALL THE BEST ERIK!!!

2007-06-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

now i finally understand ur hardship, maybe that's why you are throwing mood swings after mood swings at me. i tried, and believe me it is hell of a job. damn it, why cant i get through. never mind about this now. today's day( hmm, nice word) was a dawn of sadistic essence even at the very start, when i opened my eyes, i looked into that freakin phone, i was like wt... but never mind abt that. the worst thing is that i went to trim my hair and that kick-ass hairdresser which i always go too, cut my frinch away why i TOLD HIM NOT TO. what the hell man, my hair sux like a freak now, looking at the mirror visually make me dash to the kitchen , graba bucket and instantly start pheking into it. RIDICULOUS the day is, but fret about it i should not. ( this format is what is call the "Object Subject Verb" format) ain't it cool? LOL. dropping into my volcanic heap of work i am, then disappear i will.

asas

2007-06-09T04:55:00.000-07:00

SLC is just round the corner, preparations pretty much done. name tag(below) looks gd i think, coz i was the one who did it? LOL. maybe part of the credit should go to weiqi? coz she claims that without the head, nothing could crystalize. point to her for that, as it is TRUE? hmm, what am i talking abt? the flag is definitely one of the best i have done througout the many camps i went for. Judos to the whole group fora job well done in contributing to the welfare? yup welfare of the group, wish the grp success in the coming SLC!! ONWARDS WEIHENMAYER!!!!

2007-06-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

i have been wondering why am i doing all these stuff for? Most of the time, i go out and get pushed back, and right back into my face. maybe i should not have even thought of reverting back, should have stayed firm and be a me who dont care about any mother fuckin' stuff... maybe i should not have....

2007-06-06T06:06:00.000-07:00

it have been a long time since i stood committed. why is that desire coming back? is it coming back a bit too late? too late to salvage an already sinking ship?

2007-06-04T17:11:00.000-07:00

well, things do not often fall straight into your face, what do u expect? a bed of roses? you wont expect yourself to be playing matches and soaking it into gasoline right straight after. there are times where u mis-stepped on a bad patch, and there are times when you enjoy beautiful season under the sun, these times are there to let you taste and understand lives better... so what exactly is life?

3rd june 2007

2007-06-03T05:33:00.000-07:00

“Why do you always try and find fault with me? Can you not try and appreciate my good qualities?”

“Must you always use my things without my permission? Does it hurt to let me know beforehand?”

“Would you stop eavesdropping on my conversations?”

The above questions do sound rather familiar, don’t they? Conflicts, in any form, never fail to find their way into our lives. If they are not dealt with in the correct manner, they can do serious harm to any relationship.

Perhaps family arguments are the most perplexing of them all. Parents can turn into a time bomb on the verge of explosion. Siblings too are hideous monsters who always seem to get on your nerves.

Family conflicts and arguments are probably caused by a breakdown in communication or a misunderstanding. Nobody wants arguments, but somehow they always take us by storm and after the storm, we have the cold wars and punishments to face.

To have four or five absolutely different individuals living under the same roof can be a very trying task. You might have had such a though before,” I wonder how Mum and Dad can give birth to such disgusting creatures as my sister!” It is certainly amazing how we can live together with our family members, to have meals with them or spend as much as two decades by our parents’ side.

Family arguments can involve anybody in the family. The first thing that comes to mind is the ‘wars’ that I have fought with my siblings before. Trivial maters may trigger off the most dangerous outbursts. Most of the time, arguments between siblings are caused by one party being driven to the limits of tolerance. You try to bear with it when you inconsiderate sister switches on the light at two in the morning. You curse her under your breath but throw your blanket over your eyes and force yourself to go back to sleep.

As if to spite you further, she brings in her speaker and starts blasting it aloud thinking her culture of music are the same as yours. You try to control your temper and promise yourself not to start another fight. After half an hour of self-control exercises, you decide that you have had enough. You go off like a cork in the bottle. The end result- both of you have privileges confiscates by half a month because of your row which woke the whole family up.

Our past experiences tell us that arguments can take place anytime and anywhere. You might also have learnt that there is no point in trying to talk sense into a furious parent, an indignant teenager or an unreasonable sister. Perhaps the best thing to do is to allow both parties to calm down and sleep over the unpleasant incident. The problem must be tackled by those involved. It is often wiser not to mention whose fault it was pr who was responsible.

For an argument to take place, there must be two parties and both have an equal responsibility to patch things up. Nobody feels good when a n argument occurs. Beneath the proud surface lies a troubled soul and it does not feel good to know that you have hurt the other party with your careless remarks.

It is basically true that time can heal all wounds. Given some breathing space and plenty of time, all problems can be worked out. Cooperation, trust, tolerance can help prevent arguments from taking place. It is as much our responsibility as the other party’s to ensure that there is peace and harmony in the family.

2007-06-02T01:06:00.000-07:00

WHY? once again i ask this question. but over and over again, i cant find the answer. the wishes which i received came from everyone but my family. for the whole day, i waited, for another time, i left disappointed. not a single greeting from my FAMILY MEMBERs!!! why is this? what is that? WHAT IS THE FUCKIN' PROBLEM!?!

2007-06-01T05:37:00.000-07:00

A birthday u may call, a day when we were born, but where is the significance? i held so much hope, i entered my house, awaiting some sort of reception, but atlas!!! all i was greeted by was the stale and cold air in my house. why is this? where was the warmth which i was so used to be in the past, what have it been replaced by? right till this moment, i stared at my plate of instant noodle, seeing my own despairing reflection, thinking of the day when i was first brought to this ridiculous world, to go thru these vast sorrows or to serve a certain purpose? What have become of family?

2007-05-31T17:12:00.000-07:00

A plate of spaghetti, a food for a thought. Things haven’t been going in my favor recently. Either this is bad, or that is worse, will times ever get better? MY straight answer: NAH. But who cares, really. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Do not really bother anymore though, first time blogging since I came back from Shanghai, so really got to update some photos in memory at the least. Well, this photos really let me forget my sorrows and troubles… I know what u all are thinking off... Readers: can u please SHUT UR MOUTH and UPLOAD those photos? ME: yah yah, photos ON THE WAY‼‼

2007-05-17T05:58:00.000-07:00

Tried my best to improve the bonds with my friends this week, went to kbox, went for every dance practice, went for this, went for that, i have done everything i could. Well, kept myself in a pretty good mood recently, spent loads of money once again. went to IR Zone and spent like some 150 dollars. What the hell, i better stop splurging my money, still today, i couldn't stop myself and bought a PUMA shoe, 129 dollars man!!! so expensive rite!?! why have i bought it??? WTF(.) tomoro gonna be a big day, coz it is the first time i travelled in 3 years. China, Shanghai... gonna enjoy myself thorougly and use this time wisely to enrich myself. Really hope that is the last attempt u tried, i do not want to fume during the trip, dun force me, u are already on knife's edge!!!

2007-05-10T05:18:00.001-07:00

The test are passing and fading away so fast like torrents of rain flowing fast and free. Seem to be absorbed within this mini gust with many mirrors, looking into them, reflecting the very lone image of mine, projecting that exact same guilty conscience i always have. I always know it is within me, that culpable devil which is to be blamed. The mirror is smashed into smithereens and from those broken pieces; I still see cracks, memories. Those scars which can never be wiped out, never be healed. Without a doubt I tried… With all my might I flutter. Still it is my effort wasted, my exertion flushed… i really hoped the following dance pratice whould bloom further happy images within the stigma, signalling for better things to come, to enjoy...

2007-05-09T06:17:00.000-07:00

L'essai sont passant et se fanant loin tellement rapidement comme des torrents de pluie coulant rapides et libres. Semblez être absorbé dans cette mini rafale avec beaucoup de miroirs, en regardant dans eux, projetant qu'exact la même conscience coupable que j'ai toujours. Je sais toujours qu'il est chez moi, ce diable coupable qui doit être blâmé. Le miroir est cassé contre des morceaux et de ces morceaux cassés ; Je vois toujours des fissures, mémoires. Ces cicatrices qui peuvent jamais ne être éliminées, ne soient jamais guéries. Sans aucun doute j'ai essayé… Avec toute ma force je flotte. C'est toujours mon effort gaspillé, mon effort rincé…

2007-05-07T04:45:00.000-07:00

Haven't really blog for yesterday.cuz exam's are coming and i'm trying to find a way to feel stress..
WTF
!!

posting today cause.i'm posting today (?)
*the line above isn't suppose to make sense.*
*meaning: if you got the line above.You're weird.*

Yay! i'd did a some questions in exam!!
some question, what's the big deal.

therefore , Me, in order not to waste electricity.helped myself used the com.

But this time ! it's not
ADDICTIVE.
if not i won't be like blogging here now (?)

Anyway gotta go.cuz i hear the stupid digusting sound of books calling.
Gotta ' answer.
*The 2 lines above are a OXYMORON.IRONICAL NONSENSE.*

Just posting for fun.
for fun.
fun.
fu.
f.
.

How to do a baby freeze.
This is for all who tried to do freeze in the recent cheer com.
This guide is for freeze to the right. NOT to the left to the left.

START
1) Go to a squatting position.
which is like left knee on floor,right foot sole on floor.
2)place your left hand at the side of your right knee.and right hand at the hipbone.
3) now bend your whole body towards your right.
4) balance with your head at the right.
5) you will not slip.unless you slip.*and this doesn't make sense.*

Tips.
1) lift the right leg first parallel to your body.and then kick off with your left leg.
2) when falling tuck in your arms.to prevent injuries.serious injuries.
3) from freeze it's easy to get to chair freeze position.which is like a transistion.

Ok people i'm done.
remember don't try this at home.try this at your neighbour's.
Jus kidding.

And rodentnic rodent.it's called a freeze not scorpion.
Kkays anyway reallu gotta go.

2007-05-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

cool language, i thought it was quite cool blogging in some alternate language, so for today's post i shall blog in spanish, in contrast with the french that vivian is posting in her blog. sorry for copying but gd idea though, if i own u a sorry or a thank you, then sorry and thank you. haha. dotz.
post:
Salieron estudiar con algunos compinches hoy, gozado… que era a fondo tanto diversión, las experiencias de rebelión y algunas personales que hablaban, cómo la poder fresca que sea… píos de las gracias para dejarme sentir cierta felicidad, colores y alegría en una semana desgraciada y melancólica.

4th may 2007

2007-05-04T07:49:00.000-07:00

well, pretty stunned with the test papers issused out so far, especially the paper today which really shook me by surprise. cant fault myself more for i have already put in my utmost effort during the preparation before the test. feel so dull after the paper, but fortunately went out with some of my goodie friends and shared some of our 'history' with each other, so fun filled with laughter and joy, i treasured every minute we spent there at the cafe, although we spent quite some time there doing nothing though, nevertheless still pretty senstimental, at least to me. after the rest left, i went out with him for a erm... lunch and we spent like quite some 4 hours talking about each of our stuff for whom no one should know, to put it simply and more exact, it is official business, really. but 4 hours is abit long though. dotz, haha. decided to take a break today to do some soulsearching about myself...

3rd may 2007

2007-05-03T07:39:00.000-07:00

Thanks for the concern y’all have shown for me, I deeply appreciated them, though I am still the same lost me, but the presence of y’all have made me feel a dozen lots better than before. Now I understand that it is only in your times of misery, will u be able to identify true friends, who unleashes their true colors (positive meaning), who show their care and concern. Deeply sentimental all this seem to me though it may seem like peanuts to u all. Thanks a million to those who played their part as friend thoroughly to help me through my nightmarish days as a person. Once again, I express my gratitude with the utmost sincerity, THANK YOU GUYS AND GALS‼

2nd may 2007

2007-05-02T04:24:00.000-07:00

Why is it that I felt unwanted and ignored, is this problem faced by me solely based on me, or is it that I am thinking too much and being too sensitive? I am inclined to doubt it, but it seems like I am no longer me, that me which was once the source of my liveliness, that soul which I have been so desperately searching for. My thoughts are running wild and I am powerless in stopping it. I tried and failed, I strived and fell, I struggled… where are u all when I needed u all the most, I raise up my hand and call out for a lifeline and nothing was heard, not even the slightest of echo, why?

1st may 2007

2007-05-01T03:51:00.000-07:00

exams are sending a chill down my spine, for no reason, i no longer like them like i used to.those challenges that exams brought to me have long gone, fear have replaced my enthusiasm for these tests, my transformation... instead of turning for the better, i seem to be making a downturn, like a fresh apple turning rotten. why? what is wrong? i no longer have times which i can thorughly remember, no longer have memories i can treasure. school itself is so bloodingly boring, without my weekly dose of 'endorphins', what is to become of me? i really do hope life is as lively like it used to be. remembering the times when we went to have a delightful meal, when we went to have a memorable singing session, when we went to have a great game of snooker, all this seems inreplicable, i really regreted it, i know i should have treasured those times i spent with u all, but now i can no longer take a step back and embrace myself in the arms of all of u.everything seems to late to be retrify. how i wish i made a wiser choice and how i wish i can turn back time to soak myself and diffuse into those unforgetable moments! how i wish...

30 april 2007

2007-04-30T07:46:00.000-07:00

i hope this is going to be the last time i fall... Maybe i should not have even started out in the first place, just like a kid not making a first step. by not trying, u will never be hurt, by not walking u will never fall down. this logic seems stupid but it clicks in my head for no particular reason. a thud may be the damage which will be caused after u fall, but one should know that the metality struggle within the heart in indeed very great and same could be said to describe the emotion i am feeling now. i am not blaming u, but instead i am blaming myself, all i ask for is not to leave me out in the cold, so helpless yet so lonly....

27th april 2007

2007-04-27T07:18:00.001-07:00

Today indicate the start of the war which everyone has been awaiting. It had long brewed from the start of the year, finally the day have come, for us to unleash our potential and talents on this very stage. The full impact of this war will only be shown in the aftermath, not now definitely, all we could do now is to make use of our resources to better prepare ourselves, in this moment of truth and an arena for everyone. ONLY THE STRONG WILL SURVIVE….

26th april 2007

2007-04-26T03:40:00.000-07:00

Is there a line between us?
It seem so distant to me
And so secluded to us
Is there a reason for these divisions?
A reason we have contemplate
Craved by the template of your heart
If you have thought otherwise
Let your thoughts lead you astray
We would dwell on you…

25 april 07

2007-04-25T00:18:00.001-07:00

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24 april

2007-04-24T06:12:00.000-07:00

i tried my best, yet the distance between us is becoming distant, is it just my thoughts driving me wild, leading me astray, or is it u who are doing what i think y'all gonna do?

23 april 07

2007-04-23T05:54:00.000-07:00

Sorry if i did something unforgivable, i really did not mean it!!!! may i just ask for ur hand once again?
to someone: no need to feel sad about failure, everything is just a stepping stone, just look up and throw ur sadness behind u. ur smiles have been so rare...

22th april 2007

2007-04-21T21:30:00.000-07:00

House currently in a heap of chaos, with flying object dusting from one side to another, definitely not a peaceful scene expected to be seen on a Sunday morning. Well, what is the fulcrum of my post today is not today, instead it is about yesterday, but just didn’t have the luxury of time to post yesterday. It was a beautiful beautiful Saturday actually, went to school in the morning and going to study after that. The day sure did not start out fine, but it was certainly one which signals things to come. Well, the maths lesson was more of a picnic to me than a lesson. The sight which greeted me at the start was indeed really like a picnic with macdonalds and snacks all about the place, nevertheless, I cant be bothered about all these with the laptop in the clutch of my heart. After like some 3 hours of maths, taken off with some of my buddies to jurong east. Went to have macadonalds with them… just a observation taken down, Singaporeans these days just are not considerate, they rather spare their chair for their precious bags than giving it to people who really need it, where have the so called “helpful” people went to… never mind about that, after the meal, went to the library to look for a comfortable spot to setle down to start our revision. After some mild effort, we finally managed to find a spot. Well not the best but after all still acceptable with the library so packed and full of people, so really couldn’t ask for more. My time spent there was not quite fruitful, but I managed to see through quite a lot of stuff when I am there. Took some scandalous photos, wanted to share with u readers, but was deleted by u know who u are. Should be deleted anyway, bad bad photos… haha‼ In fact, we went there as a troop, but our “troop” was reduced to bare bones? After like some 2 hours. So by the time we ended there was only three of us left, minced meat and of course someone with the wei element… dotz. Went to have dinner like at 8 and all of us was like feeling so freakinly hungry, and holy, minced meat was scammed, bought beef but got fish, what a joke. Wow, he do really have a very high metalbolism rate, finished two bowls of rice in a hustle. Impressive…. After the meal, our moods somehow took a turn and we aren’t really very high anymore. All of us are being pestered by our daily enemies, and in my case, someone who really like to sew a lot. Irritating being aren’t they, for those who understand what I am saying…
P.S for someone: dun feel sad anymore, u know trust is a very hard thing to earn but really u have nothing to feel sad about, coz everyone have a problem in terms of trust, me myself is plagued by the same problem. Dun need to thank me about anything, it’s my duty as a friend. FEEL HAPPY‼ Tomorrow is a better and more beautiful day.

20 april

2007-04-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

Days in school recently have been whacky but nevertheless still fun. Well, preparations for the dance that we are going to flaunt in front of the china students have been going on fine. Attitude towards the practice wasn’t too positive at first, but after some forcing (maybe not) and coaxing, I decided to go. The moment I embarked on this journey, I have not looked back. And every dance practice which I have went for, I have not regretted. Not only have I started to like dancing, I have started to know the friends around me better. Well, though I have been feeling happy, my mood haven improved much though, still as dull as ever’. Plagued with a heavy workload and lazy attitude, how can I ever get things done? Freaking MID YEAR IS COMING, when will I ever get my revision done? Despite the fact that I am feeling dull, I was also being blessed with LADY LUCK! ‼ THE FAT LADY IS SINGING‼! Tell u all something, I am indeed very lucky today, make me feel godly. The bus shaved pass me‼! WOOHOO, and I am still standing. MIRACULOUS, isn’t it. My “murderers” whom I shall not name, u are being warned… dun worry, just another joke to curb my certain highness now. Must be those chocolates, providing me with endless supply of endorphins in my blood. wahahahahaha
P.S+ ur presence make my world go round, ur sudden disappearance make my world surrounded with uncertainty, so alone I am, trapped in my dark spot, so helpless so devastated….

18 april 2007

2007-04-18T06:51:00.000-07:00

Set my own record of the year today. amazingly reached home at 2pm. but this came at a cost. i walked home under the freakingly heavy rain. wahahahaha, plagued with an ugly hairstyle while walking home, but could do nothing about it due to the lack of a mirror. dotz. the mid year exam is coming, maybe i should stop blogging for a few day... but nevertheless, i will still try to blog. sO for people who come to my blog, i will try to ensure that the best is being brought to u...

17april 2007

2007-04-17T06:21:00.000-07:00

Well, came to end of an exhausting day in school. Having physics after chem. And having star after school. Finally have a chance of respite when I managed to come home. Enjoyed a cup of ice cream while waking home. Amazing things an ice-cream could do. Brought back some cool and funny memories and last but not least it quenched my thirst during a hot day. After I came home, reached out for my portable dvd player and gave it a try… not as gd as I expected but nevertheless still considered a gd bargain. Haha‼ got to work hard to PERFECT MY DANCE STEPS‼! That shall be the thing I do in the next few days…

2007-04-16T01:48:00.000-07:00

YUP!!! Been a long time seen I last blogged. Burdened by the fact that my pc was spoiled, there is really no way I could have blogged. Now that I got a new laptop, I can continue blogging and express my feelings and emotions towards certain stuff. Well, my new way to forget my sorrow caused by various sources is to go on a spending spree. Works well on me so far though. The only negative point is that u will wear out ur pockets very and I mean extremely fast. Let’s just look back and calculate how much i have spent. Bought a new Nike bag, a samsungL700 camera, a portable cayenne DVD player and of course an Acer laptop. Sounds cool so far erh. Total amount spent: 3k+++!!! Amazing isn’t it? But looking at the resources I have now I can say I am completely depleted, or should I proclaim myself as a bloke, no money, and no cash. Haiz, that’s the PRICE u got to pay for using this method. Not strongly encouraged and recommended, but no harm giving a try though. So have FUN!!! Ha-ha.

6th april 2007

2007-04-06T06:51:00.000-07:00

Have I not shown enough respect? U have blown the last straw which I have set up for u. is this the way u repay me? I do not want to be like that, u have driven me up the wall. The words u said are irreversible, I WILL definitely REMEMBER IT FOR LIFE. The scar u inflicted me have left me wounded. Nothing u do now can repair the damage. Just u remember. I will seek vengeance and reimburse twice the dent u imposed on me. MARK MY WORDS!!! U will have to pay the price... go continue sewing for all i care!!!

5th april

2007-04-05T05:20:00.000-07:00

what is love????

4th april 2007

2007-04-04T04:50:00.000-07:00

What is this?!? Why are all these stuff happening to me? Is that a price I have to pay for the sins I have committed? I am inclined to doubt it, but all these seem true, at least at this expense of the moment. The question is why? This logic is something we are all familiar with: Protagonist live to die another day while villains are more often than not being exterminated. They are always the one to be washed off in a disaster or in any form or accident. Just one thing u all got to remember; they would not have and good prospect .But why are those inflicting sins on me not duly punished? The peccadilloes I committed may be too much, but those inflicting the damage, the pain, and the chaos to my life should be duly punished, shouldn’t they? I am bushed with my life, so bleak the future it is to me, that it seemed like I am doomed for failure in whatever I do. Day after day, my hope fades off in a sluggish and agonizing process. One day it may reach a point it may even ceased to exist. Maybe it’s time…

2nd april 2007

2007-04-02T06:01:00.000-07:00

Am I a rotten apple? Fascinating and amazing fact… maybe I am, maybe I am not. Whole tons of chaoses are pouring like torrents of rain flowing fast and free, but in the midst of all these pandemonium, I became aware of the importance of friends. No longer are my parents the one who are by my side, giving me the support and consolation which is so dearly and desperately desired by me. Am I demanding too much, by asking for these basic needs which could so easily be given? Is asking me if I am fine too much to ask for? Perhaps I am just an ungrateful brat asking for stuff which is very hard to inquire for, indeed, perhaps is too hard for them. Maybe I am requesting too much. One fine day, my whole soul would just be torn apart, into many pieces. Losing hope to life is forcing me to walk up the ladder of sanity. Will I be able to stop in time to find that minuscule hope which may exist somewhere somehow? Can I take a step back and find optimism? This seems to be a secluded hope, a very distant one…

1st april 2007

2007-04-01T06:19:00.000-07:00

yesterday was speech day, enjoyed my role as a vip usherer. but before i could even start the day, my god-damn frinch was cut by ms ong. sadist sia, only abit longer only mah, why want me cut, now the length so equal, like cuckoo like that. then after that, started my duty together with annperng, skip the flat, raising to play carrom in sc room, so fun sia!!! when the vip came, i was like talking to him alone, that ann perng was like behind stoning. lucky i was blessed with an eloquent tongue. haha. stood for so long waitng for him, leg almost break. after school went kfc to have a meal with a few people, followed by a game of street soccer before going down to toapayoh to support those css people. sad sia, tio chased out by security idiot. nvm, went back to tamah jurong to kik soccer again, before walking home under the tremendous rain... today is a day much worse that yesterday, plighted with unhappiness, so miserable. dun feel like talking, dun feel like doing anything, played a game of tarot card before signing off, hope tomoro will be a better day.

i am The Fool
Idea, thought, spirituality, that which endeavours to rise above the material.
The Fool is the card of infinite possibilities. The bag on the staff indicates that he has all he need to do or be anything he wants, he has only to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the card carries a little bark of warning as well. Stop daydreaming and fantasising and watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking the fool.

2007-03-27T05:58:00.000-07:00

the day plighted with joy and sorrow. started out happily upon seeing a certain somebody. but the rest of the day, didn't quite managed to live up to what i expected. didn't quite send what the teachers say into my head. after the mother tongue lesson, did not quite have the mood anymore. coz i did not freakin finish the easy chinese paper, then the amaths paper also make my head spin sia. WHOLE PAPER i ONly know how to do the first question. UTterly ridiculous!!!comfirm plus chop, i have fail the paper. no choice, got to start to buck up for maths man!!! after school, tio pick my mrs tong to take some photos. spend quite some time on it before going home. have a pleasent trip back home from school, enjoyed myself so much.... i have a poem here to dedicate to a special someone...
you are the one i adore
you are the one i want to be with
you are the one i want to write about
you are the one i always think about
the one i see in my dreams
my mind lights up
when it pictures you
like a lighted splint with oxygen
my thoughts flow without effort
my pen writes without stopping
my inspiration and imagination flows
with the sight of you
so near yet so far.
i can see myself spending eternity with you
forever and ever......

26th March 2007

2007-03-26T02:14:00.000-07:00

Went through a pretty miserable time yesterday and today. But thanks to you, i have managed to find life in a already depressing week. Someone or rather, i have been engaing in quarrel after quarrel. one over my mum deicision to sell my piano!!! It's like how can she do that? nvm shan't elaoborate more, or else people gonna think bad abt me. haha. today's day is like so wretched, first broke a glass rod, then got a sudden chinese test out of nowhere. A-Maths test gonna be tomoro, how man?!? dun freakin understand the logs. diAoz. During recess, someone or rather, sathia got attacked by a batch of people with chillies for nothing. then when the teacher interogated that guy, he said it was unintentional. WTH... then in the afternoon , got the shock of my life maybe not a shock but a slight tickle. OMG, mr tan really started blumering about all the mistakes we made in the class. and to think he said it was only stage TWO, and if we continue with our "habits", he gonna approach STAGE THREE(include dumping of chair out of class)!!!! the thought of this prospect really pant my goosebumps to start standing again. when i was walking home, i almost melted... fortunately, when i got home, i saw a bottle of honey water. GULPED it down in one shot. felt so good man. hope the weather in the days to come would be better and cooler.
thanks... becoz of u all my unhappiness were miraculously erased, and i mean u.

23th march 07

2007-03-24T00:08:00.000-07:00

I ENCOUNTERED A LUCKY STAR!!!
yesterday was a exhausting day. fiRst was the sports day then it was the julia gabriel debate competition... the sport day was the best out of the sport day that i had ever attend. this year QIN house won the cheering competition. we started out badly. but after a motivational talk(scolding= motivational?) from ms tAng things improved. our spirits were being recaptured. we screamed our lungs out, we puSh the wholE Low atmosphere into a new level. all of a sudden, everyone is cheering, everyone is in the midst of HIGHNESS!!! but all this only happen when the 'lucky star' was here... after the sport day ended, my voice was hoarse, and i started to worry about my debate that night. miraculously, my voiCe Heal after some time... went to have lunch with my classmates after the sports day. shared some swEet secrets. haha! after lunch went back to school to prepare for the debate. prepared for like 6 whole hours without rest. done alot of sinfuL acts within this time period. shant elaborate more for fears of thunderboLts. before the debate i was someone worried. but after receiving powers from my lucky star, i was rejuVenated!!! my star seem to give me a soothing effect, making me feel relax and Unexpectedly viLbrant. before the debate cOmpetition starT, my teammateS broke down, and i mean all of them. i was the only one being relaxed and smiling. weird isn't it. i just felt happy. after i finished my speech, i thought i screwded up, but amazingly i won the best speaker!!! and i helped ended our school losing streak in the competiton. it was my first victory for the school and i hoped for more to come!!!signing off... btw, YOU HAVE MADE A BIG IMPACT ON MY LIFE!!!

21 march 2007

2007-03-21T05:18:00.000-07:00

HAha!!! finally come to the end of the common test week. whole week of lesson have been alright. plenty of reshuffling without the presence of the mr tan. btw, classes no longer appeal to me recently, maybe i am too tired, just couldn't get myself to concentrate during lessons, keep dozing off. got to start to get my act together and pull up my socks, coz marks do not drop from the sky, so have to start working hard to achieve the marks that i have aimed for. ppl around me have been jokey of late, with rachel, jacqueline and chia heng adding spice and joy to my life in class. the sight of them just make my feel intoxicated. maybe they are the sole reason why i am going to school everyday. haha, btw the glitter text up there^ is done with the request of both of them of course. maybe not totally becoz of them. today, i sat for the chemistry test which i have missed during my time at the sabbatical. seem quite hard to me, with james, manwei and eileen corrupting my mind about compound and mixture. think i gonna flung that paper anyone, shan't let it bother me too much. after school went to the library to talk about the debate. so impressed with mr lam. never knew he was such a gd teacher. he increased my knowledge and understanding towards loads of stuff in just a few hours. he is just GREAT!!!! after that played a few games of carrom with james... lost all of them. How sad -,-,!! ended the day in school talking to james on the bus. Signing off...

19th march 2007

2007-03-19T04:39:00.000-07:00

start of a new term, a new dawn, a brand new future awaits.... first day of the term not too interesting, neither is it too dull. lessons went on as usual, but unlike the first term, there is a new member in our corner today, which is RACHEL.... haha, so fun. so many jokes went on today, from lame one to real funny one, really enjoyed today. at the end of the day comes two test. not too easy not too hard, but just one careless too much in each paper. who cares anyway, just another common test. after school went bowling. chan teng hazel and i seem to be in a league of our own. eileen is like such an awesome bowler. chan teng emerged top in the gutter challenge, averaging 11.5 gutter in a set. brilliant isn't it? i came in second with 9 gutter in a set on average. shan't continuing humilating chan teng, or else we gonna end up fighting again. not too gd. carried on playing pool with chan teng. drawn on par with one set credit to each of our names. the second set we played seemed to be against him in every aspect. it appears that he is destinied to lose. even a ball which is like within an arm's length, he missed. and it happened thrice. poor him. after that, walked back to school with him. saw someone which i should not see, and missed two buses thanks to that someone. thinking i avoided her successfully, i decided to take the third bus. atlas i still saw her at the bus interchange.... shan't continue with this tale. haha. lookin forward to tomoro!!!!! ooPs, almost forgot. HAPPy biRthDay DoReeN!!! so many people seem to be having their birthday in MarCh. Going to become a Poor Guy again... how Sad... hopE mArcH will be over soon.. hehex. Signing off with five dots.....

17th march 2007

2007-03-17T05:48:00.000-07:00

Been a week since i last updated... So let me cap of the happenings in this week with just one post. this week have been eventful and full of fortunate and unfortunate events. on tuesday, there was a star research project interview to check on our project, on wednesday, there is an interactive day camp. and best of all, on friday IT IS BENG YEW"S BIRTHDAY!!!! i shall thereby start with the star interview: expecting to get a shock of my life when i enter the room for the interview. instead it was so un-tensed up and so light-hearted. my project is on magneto-rheological effect on cleaning up oil spills. to think mr chen ask a lame question: can i eat down iron fillings so that u can use this effect to extract the oil in my body. i was like in such an awkward position, wondering whether to laugh out loud or to give him some respect by keeping firm. in the end, i gave him a slight smile and went on with my presentation. Next up is the interactive day camp!!! IT ROXS man!!! the game was cool and everyone felt happy. every ounce of effort eileen and i put in for the camp was ruined by agnes mysterious dissapperance. taken like one hour of our time, causing us to miss the best game of the camp which is : waterbomb warfare. so sad!!! it was only at thursday, did i discover a terrible truth. for now i shall keep it to myself!!! let's go on to something less stressful which is the birthday of bengYew!!!! have loads of orange juice and plenty of fun. andre and i were like the late-comers of the party and to think andre went there in his scouts uniform. what a joke!!! haha. played block catching and abit of waterbomb. haiz, last to get caught in the catching. get caught because someone blocked my escape route. how sad!!!! haha. took some photos before i left. let me cap off this entry with some photos(more to come later). enjoy!!!!

6th march 2007

2007-03-06T04:26:00.000-08:00

today is a day to forget.... alot of stuff just did not go the way i expected, and i losing my temper time and again, cozing me to do stuff which i knew i should not do. just getting too worked up, maybe the stress building up deep inside me is too much for me. i just erupting very soon, if stuff carry on this way. no time for a break, no time for a respite. sometimes, i may seem eccentric and childish. but it's like my way for destress. so pp, sorry if i been too childishl!!! haiz, when can i see the rainbow after a gloomy rain. what i have experience till now, is all thunder and storm, i cant tolerate it anymore. tons of work, loads of job, when can i ever finish them?
after school, really enjoyed myself under the rain. walked from the school to yuan ching under the rain without an umbrella. felt so carefree and happy. it's like the rain just washed off all my troubles. thanks javihn and weiyang for accompanying me under the heavy rain. haha!!! thanks you all lots!!! how i hope i can be a normal student, just pure studying, no other commitments!!! but so far, the hole is getting deeper, so deep that i can hardly climb out to have a breath. just wonder when things will change for the better...........

5th march 2007

2007-03-05T03:13:00.000-08:00

Went to hwa chong institution for sabatical, got a chance to explore the amazing heritage of the school. i was in awe of the school the moment i set foot there, just the school field itself is bigger than our school itself. JUST IMAGINE THE SIZE... haha. So freakin' stress out these days. on thursday alumni dinner, friday and saturday went for express camp, then got to go sph for meeting, from today to friday got sabatical, on friday, even worse. friday got to go robo GP, then after that go for debate competiton, followed by going to sph camp. then the following tuesday still gonna go for the audition for the star project thingy, on the thursday, still got INTERACTIVE DAYCAMP....WOAH!!!! when can i even have a break. everything is coming down on me so hard that it is already too heavy for my weak shoulders. who else is more busy than me. haha.
carry on with life today. had a meal at HCI, not as good as i expected though. almost lost my way back to class. then after the sabatical, went to have a meal at macdonald with eileen, hazel and chan teng, talked about each other's haunted experience. spooky spooky stuff. went back to school, saw my hao jiejie, SO HAPPY!!!! then told daron about one game( a very ghostly one), he really went to try it out... dun dare look at him.... hope nothing wrong happen to him... almost forget another thing. Eileen, dun get so sad ok... cheer up!!! try to relax, be optimistic, hope to see the smile on ur face again tomoro!
i shall end my entry here, and prepare for my debate competition this friday!!!!

4th march 2007

2007-03-03T22:04:00.000-08:00

Finally the express camp is over. So tired and worn out, but still i have lots of fun... the whole of the night during the camp, i did not even sleep except for like 5 minutes. guess what me, a lame ass did? haha. i spent the whole night looking for ghost together with jessica, esther, nichole. heard that someone burnt herself to death in the home econs room a few years back in the old building. went to check it out. see nothing nia... then we decided to explore the legendary art room whereby most ' dirty stuff' was being seen. walk and WAlk and WALK, one round after another. see nothing felt nothing. all of a sudden, jessica tugged at me, and forced me to walk faster. she said she felt something following her. shant elaoborate more... spooky stuff. tried some other stuff later at the night, felt so eerie, send a chill down my spine... let's stop talking about all these 'bad stuff'... the camp was so so so fun, throughly enjoyed myself. first time being the gi, and within the first hour of camp got our name tags confiscated. felt so sad... coz name tags not standardised, sianz sia. both joan and i spent our last hours before the camp doing all those, that's why not standardize then tio confiscated. but the consolation was that my group won the best design for our name tag!!! SALUTE JOHN JACOB ASTOR!! it was the least expected and it was never ever in our wildest of dreams. the part which i enjoyed myself the most was the stand by bunk!!!!! i saw lots and lots of cool stuff. first the twin tower, then the jackpot machine in the las vegas, followed by the statue of liberty, and best of all the statue for the next olympics held in the new york. oh ya musn't forget i also saw a zao cai mao.... haha, lots of fun... many other stuff, to think there is six vice president, and also 6 hounorary secretaries of eileen chong aka jiang peishan tong xue... haha. then tio pump thrice in the camp, first by jessica for bursting her waterbomb, second by the six honuarary secretart of eileen chong then the last one which me myself not sure of the reason. haha, see the rest pump mthen follow lor. no idea why?!? what a joke. this camp cetainely serve it's purpose as the change from the start to the end of the camp of the sec 1 was pretty much obvious!!! GOOD JOB JOHN JACOB ASTOR!!! and for the people who are in the group, especially alvin chong( brother of eileen chong) , i congratulate u for surviving the whole camp. as for alvin, u went through a lot, so just wanted to send you my regards and condolences.( sorry man!! cause you to went throught so much trouble!!!) with all these i shall conclude my whole experience in the camp, as a fun and exciting camp!!!! YAYness, now i can take my nap!!! haha. sorry for abandoning you bloogie. promise you refurbish you and get you loaded up with my joys!!!