Saturday, November 03, 2007
Managed to make it into the arena!!! What an achievement? Hahax, supposed to be filled with happiness and YAY-ness!!! But the feeling within me is so NUMB, not a single bit of happiness at all. I tried to make myself happy but I just couldn’t. And for Eileen, Joan and Clarissa, sorry for being so moody today.
That feeling of joy is getting so hard to muster from within me; I am supposed to be full of it. But now my soul is so disintegrated that I am no longer the me that I know, that side of me have abandoned me and it now seem like it cease to exist. There is so much thing going on within me!!! I hope someone can understand my plight…
Clarissa, Joan, Eileen and i have successfully made into into the top 12 of arena which will be aired on tv!!! 
the day where we peeps laughed out heads out outside Pizza Hut!! what a day!!!
I can stand this pressure no more, its making me explode!!! Spare me the nagging plz, I know what I am doing, I am turning into a freak because of you, like a detonator which is slowly ticking away!!! STOP IT!!