Thursday, November 01, 2007
Been really down these few days... i am really lost in a middle of nowhere, FRUSTRATED and CONFUSED!!!
Bugged by a question of whether to continue on my journey or to put down everything and succumb to the pressure surrounding me. For once, i found that no one at home understand one single bit about me, the time when i needed them the most, they turned against me. it is like u are in a deep pit seeking for help, and just when you are about to get out, someone kicked you back into the pit which you try so desperately to get out off. the aftermath of it, is the sense of weakness and a strong desire to stop trying and let yourself continue to sink into a bottomless pit....
what i need is just a little bit of support and a little bit of encouragement when i get home.
Is this simple thing of mine too much to ask for? all of sudden, i found friends more endearing than those which i have lived in my life for years. why is it when i am at rock bottom, it is always my friends who keep me happy and lend my a helping hand instead of my family members? the sight of my family members is supposed to make me feel better, but it turns out that the feeling is the complete opposite of what i supposed it would be...
friends, are now someone who for not one moment do I want to miss...
Posted by bryant at 6:46 AM