Saturday, June 23, 2007
AGM meeting today. did not get that post which i so desperately wanted. i am just a failure. i know i could have done better, but i did not. am i even fit to be a student councilor? my arrogance, my ego, that bloody swagger of mine, have plagued me all my life. why cant i get rid of them, why cant i? maybe i am just not destinied to be a leader. when my name appears under the project management team, i was like stunned, shocked, then devastated, followed by a strong gust of sadness. tears were welling up in my eyes. i tried to control, tried not to cry. but the moment i look at the sec2s, i just couldn't help it. i know i failed them. i just couldn't help it, tears just started dropping like torrents of rain flowing fast and free. i failed to stop my tears once again. i am just a total failure, a piece of garbage, a guy who is hollow and making no sense all the time. for the sec2s, you all really make me feel part of u all, u all must strive and seek better guidance from kenneth and eileen, they are superb, believe me. no harm trying it out. as for my fellow batchmates, thanks for lending me your shuolders and giving me words of encouragement, especially james, daron, sellek, izwan and solihin. you all are just FAb. i dunno how much worse would i have felt without u guys. my enthusiasm must stay, i know it must, but.... ernest and darren from the 22nd student council, you all really give us a hand in handling our current situation. for james who was also with me, i know you are sad, both of us are, you are dissapointed, so am i. cry it out, maybe it will make you feel better... as to my future post in the 25th student council, give me some time, i will try to make u shine. but before this, let me settle down and cry it all out.... BRYANT, forget this!!! accept the fact you can never be a sec 2 coordinator, go on a new path, and forget abt your past, U MUST DO IT!!!
Posted by bryant at 5:35 AM