Friday, June 29, 2007
why?why do all these things happen in a whole long chain? streching me to a limit whereby i could no longer withstand? why do u have to do this way that i am hurt the same place as i was the previous time? it was just not long ago did i managed to recover from a heavy blow, and now i got to deal with another. i am tired, mentally tired, too weak to cope yet another major blow, ENOUGH!! give me a break..
Posted by bryant at 5:47 AM
Monday, June 25, 2007
after all your encouragements and a talk with ms tang, really see through quite a number of stuff!! PMT not really a bad post after all, i shall make use of this post and strive with it!!! hahax. went for picnic with james and daron todae, so cool and fun!!! our whacky ideas will finally be put into action!! hahax we shall make sure the 25th is legendary!!! WE WILL DO IT!!!P.S. thanks my fellow batchmates, sec 2s and my friends, thanks for your concern and encouragement. they really got me going!!! THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN, YOU ALL ARE JUST GREAT!!!
Posted by bryant at 5:36 AM
Sunday, June 24, 2007
last day of the june holidays. supposed to finish all my holiday assignments but just cant bring myself to finish it. not feeling any betta compared to yesterday. images still flashing in my head. cant forget a single thing. last night was no better, the moment i laid on the bed, i started to think about it again. it is just hard to forget...
Posted by bryant at 7:59 AM
Saturday, June 23, 2007
AGM meeting today. did not get that post which i so desperately wanted. i am just a failure. i know i could have done better, but i did not. am i even fit to be a student councilor? my arrogance, my ego, that bloody swagger of mine, have plagued me all my life. why cant i get rid of them, why cant i? maybe i am just not destinied to be a leader. when my name appears under the project management team, i was like stunned, shocked, then devastated, followed by a strong gust of sadness. tears were welling up in my eyes. i tried to control, tried not to cry. but the moment i look at the sec2s, i just couldn't help it. i know i failed them. i just couldn't help it, tears just started dropping like torrents of rain flowing fast and free. i failed to stop my tears once again. i am just a total failure, a piece of garbage, a guy who is hollow and making no sense all the time. for the sec2s, you all really make me feel part of u all, u all must strive and seek better guidance from kenneth and eileen, they are superb, believe me. no harm trying it out. as for my fellow batchmates, thanks for lending me your shuolders and giving me words of encouragement, especially james, daron, sellek, izwan and solihin. you all are just FAb. i dunno how much worse would i have felt without u guys. my enthusiasm must stay, i know it must, but.... ernest and darren from the 22nd student council, you all really give us a hand in handling our current situation. for james who was also with me, i know you are sad, both of us are, you are dissapointed, so am i. cry it out, maybe it will make you feel better... as to my future post in the 25th student council, give me some time, i will try to make u shine. but before this, let me settle down and cry it all out.... BRYANT, forget this!!! accept the fact you can never be a sec 2 coordinator, go on a new path, and forget abt your past, U MUST DO IT!!!Posted by bryant at 5:35 AM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
sadistic day today. how careless of me? went to make my i/c and forgot to bring my birth certificate. LOL. went back and went back? yup, went back and went back. (just what am i talking abt) this sentence is meant to be weird, so if u get it... U ARE WEIRD!!! back to da whole point, i spent 3 damn hours just to register my i/c. lame isn't it?Posted by bryant at 7:23 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
well, went back to school today to finish up some unfinished business. sadly today, is gonna be gonna ms ng's last lesson with us. sob sob:( really hope she need not leave. but still i wish her all the best in her career. precious memories of ur time spent with us, will be etched in our minds forever. i shall dedicate this piece of work to u, the teacher which we treasure so much...Farewell to thee!
but not farewell
To all my fondest thoughts of thee:
Within my heart they still shall dwell;
And they shall cheer and comfort me.
If I may ne'er behold again
That form and face so dear to me,
Nor hear thy voice,
still would I faint
Preserve, for aye, their memory.
That voice, the magic of whose tone
Can wake an echo in my brain
,Creating feelings that, alone,
Can make my tranced spirit blest.
That laughing eye, whose sunny beam
My memory would not cherish less; --
And oh, that smile!
whose joyous gleam
Nor mortal language can express.Adios,
And bid the future pay the past
With joy for anguish, smiles for tears?
Here are some photos we took with her...
Posted by bryant at 2:19 AM
Monday, June 18, 2007
Last week of holiday, supposed to be the time to relax. instead i find myself in a ridiculous mess, looking from left to right, not being able to find an empty space in my freakin' schedule. PLZ i wish there were more time!!!Posted by bryant at 5:22 AM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
still reeling from muscle aches all over my body. lazing around now, feeling tired and weak. wondering where are the rest of my batchmates... they said they gonna be online, but i saw none. LOL, maybe all of them are feeling very very tired. no excuses coz i feel tired myself too. if not for my usual habit of not sleeping, i thought i would have fall flat on my bed yesterday. cant wait for them to reveal our post during AGM. i seriously feel i will get my desired post which is... SECONDARY 2 COORDINATOR. for now, i wish myself all the best. wishing well for myself!?! LOLPosted by bryant at 11:03 PM
SLC simply roxs! Spent 3 days meaningfuly in the camp, learn various key elements in becoming a gd councilor and of course a good person. i seriously felt my batch have a better understanding towards each other!!! 25th student council GO GO GO!!! i am dedicating this poem to my fellow batchmate, SOLIHIN!!! once again, sorry...I know I hurt you and I feel so bad,
For saying things and making you sad..
It's just that my love for you is so great,
I want to be with you, I just can't wait..
You are so special, one of a kind,
I could look forever and never find,
Anyone else as wonderful as you,
With such a pretty smile and eyes so blue..
Please forgive me for things I said,
I love you so much,
It just messed my head..
You are my life.
My very breathe,
I promise to love you, even after death..
So if you can forgive this broken hearted friend,
You'll never see that part of me again..
Posted by bryant at 5:42 AM
Monday, June 11, 2007
camp prepAration pretty much done, i think the camp is going to be a successful one, i hope everything go on fine and of course wish my group all the best and if possible win the best grp. well, the end of the camp also dawn the start of our reign in the office of sc. cool. nvm, we shall these stuff flow as nature intended. but instead of gaining energy at home today, daron and i went kBOx? cool isn't it, before a camp, singing!!! haha. enjoyed myself thoroughly but albeit a cost... LOL!! time to do packing... ALL THE BEST ERIK!!!Posted by bryant at 6:14 AM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
now i finally understand ur hardship, maybe that's why you are throwing mood swings after mood swings at me. i tried, and believe me it is hell of a job. damn it, why cant i get through. never mind about this now. today's day( hmm, nice word) was a dawn of sadistic essence even at the very start, when i opened my eyes, i looked into that freakin phone, i was like wt... but never mind abt that. the worst thing is that i went to trim my hair and that kick-ass hairdresser which i always go too, cut my frinch away why i TOLD HIM NOT TO. what the hell man, my hair sux like a freak now, looking at the mirror visually make me dash to the kitchen , graba bucket and instantly start pheking into it. RIDICULOUS the day is, but fret about it i should not. ( this format is what is call the "Object Subject Verb" format) ain't it cool? LOL. dropping into my volcanic heap of work i am, then disappear i will.Posted by bryant at 7:32 AM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
asas
SLC is just round the corner, preparations pretty much done. name tag(below) looks gd i think, coz i was the one who did it? LOL. maybe part of the credit should go to weiqi? coz she claims that without the head, nothing could crystalize. point to her for that, as it is TRUE? hmm, what am i talking abt? the flag is definitely one of the best i have done througout the many camps i went for. Judos to the whole group fora job well done in contributing to the welfare? yup welfare of the group, wish the grp success in the coming SLC!! ONWARDS WEIHENMAYER!!!!
Posted by bryant at 4:55 AM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
i have been wondering why am i doing all these stuff for? Most of the time, i go out and get pushed back, and right back into my face. maybe i should not have even thought of reverting back, should have stayed firm and be a me who dont care about any mother fuckin' stuff... maybe i should not have....Posted by bryant at 3:08 AM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
it have been a long time since i stood committed. why is that desire coming back? is it coming back a bit too late? too late to salvage an already sinking ship?Posted by bryant at 6:06 AM
Monday, June 04, 2007
well, things do not often fall straight into your face, what do u expect? a bed of roses? you wont expect yourself to be playing matches and soaking it into gasoline right straight after. there are times where u mis-stepped on a bad patch, and there are times when you enjoy beautiful season under the sun, these times are there to let you taste and understand lives better... so what exactly is life?Posted by bryant at 5:11 PM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
3rd june 2007
“Why do you always try and find fault with me? Can you not try and appreciate my good qualities?”“Must you always use my things without my permission? Does it hurt to let me know beforehand?”
“Would you stop eavesdropping on my conversations?”
The above questions do sound rather familiar, don’t they? Conflicts, in any form, never fail to find their way into our lives. If they are not dealt with in the correct manner, they can do serious harm to any relationship.
Perhaps family arguments are the most perplexing of them all. Parents can turn into a time bomb on the verge of explosion. Siblings too are hideous monsters who always seem to get on your nerves.
Family conflicts and arguments are probably caused by a breakdown in communication or a misunderstanding. Nobody wants arguments, but somehow they always take us by storm and after the storm, we have the cold wars and punishments to face.
To have four or five absolutely different individuals living under the same roof can be a very trying task. You might have had such a though before,” I wonder how Mum and Dad can give birth to such disgusting creatures as my sister!” It is certainly amazing how we can live together with our family members, to have meals with them or spend as much as two decades by our parents’ side.
Family arguments can involve anybody in the family. The first thing that comes to mind is the ‘wars’ that I have fought with my siblings before. Trivial maters may trigger off the most dangerous outbursts. Most of the time, arguments between siblings are caused by one party being driven to the limits of tolerance. You try to bear with it when you inconsiderate sister switches on the light at two in the morning. You curse her under your breath but throw your blanket over your eyes and force yourself to go back to sleep.
As if to spite you further, she brings in her speaker and starts blasting it aloud thinking her culture of music are the same as yours. You try to control your temper and promise yourself not to start another fight. After half an hour of self-control exercises, you decide that you have had enough. You go off like a cork in the bottle. The end result- both of you have privileges confiscates by half a month because of your row which woke the whole family up.
Our past experiences tell us that arguments can take place anytime and anywhere. You might also have learnt that there is no point in trying to talk sense into a furious parent, an indignant teenager or an unreasonable sister. Perhaps the best thing to do is to allow both parties to calm down and sleep over the unpleasant incident. The problem must be tackled by those involved. It is often wiser not to mention whose fault it was pr who was responsible.
For an argument to take place, there must be two parties and both have an equal responsibility to patch things up. Nobody feels good when a n argument occurs. Beneath the proud surface lies a troubled soul and it does not feel good to know that you have hurt the other party with your careless remarks.
It is basically true that time can heal all wounds. Given some breathing space and plenty of time, all problems can be worked out. Cooperation, trust, tolerance can help prevent arguments from taking place. It is as much our responsibility as the other party’s to ensure that there is peace and harmony in the family.